to let the matter rest or make it big?!
so damn alot people concerning,
messaged & called me,
asking me what happened...
i'm explaining the same topic for the whole day!
well, i didn't realise until today,
that soo many of my
reading my blog without tagging me!
thanks for all your concerns!
it's really not a big matter,
there's no need for you guys to help me (:
alright, i don't go okays?!
i let the matter rest okays?!
just because some of you heard those things,
you guys are actually more agitated than me!
since you all insist that if i want to make it big,
you all will be there with me,
I DON'T WANT!!!
i've said soo many times,
i don't want to make it big!
no choice,
but to give up ):
( but i want my pride back!!! )
to my dearest
THANK YOU FOR ALL THOSE,
CRAZIE IDEAS ON HOW TO ___...
but, i won't use that way to handle...
to my dearest
THANK YOU FOR ALL THOSE,
CURSINGS & HELPINGS ON ___...
but, i don't want to make it ugly...
to someone who love friends more than me :
- I DON'T NEED THEM TO APOLOGISE ALREADY!
CAN?! HAPPY?! SATISFIED?! ( i don't care~ )
you ought to thank my
lessons learned!
i've finally found out,
what kind of guy is he!
worth it or not,
isn't important to me,
ANYMORE!!!
i shall force myself to stop missing him,
i shall force myself to stop loving him,
just like you guys told me everytime,
i'm too
he's always hurting me... ...
the words he said, always so sharp,
leaving my heart bleeding, hurting with scars... ...
i give up,
really give up!
no matter how hard i try,
it's also no use!
he's just pure heartless towards me ):
did he really belonged to me once?!
did he ever loved me whole-heartedly?!
to me,
the answers can be seen clearly by his actions now!
love him?!
love him not?!
i'm seriously confused!
i'm afraid of being hurt by HIM again... ...
i'll always remember this answer from him,
" my friends are more important! "... ...
from the 1st time i heard this thing,
i cried, always, afraid of him leaving... ...
it was almost 1 year ago,
he answered my question this way,
outside of yuan ching secondary school!
that kind of hurt is always non-earasable... ...
will he stay by me if i really want him back?!
i don't really think so,
his feelings for me has already vanish!
2 years relationship,
sweet but unreal!
promises he made,
his always lying!
stay with me forever?!
i'm your only girl?!
all bullshit right?!
I HATE YOU!
HATE YOU FOR LEAVING ME!
HATE YOU FOR HURTING ME!
but,
STILL LOVE YOU WITH MY EVERYTHING... ...
I'M FEELING
DAMN
FUCKING
MISERABLE!!!
