i should not pin so much hope on him..
he's gone missing in action ( MIA )..
what for i care so much?!
you've got your girl to dote on you..
still say whatever bullshit to me ):
maybe my bitches are right,
you should have fallen for her already..
or else,
prove to me that my bitches are wrong!
daddy taught me how to read the stakes,
telling me how to calculate... ...
and, guess what?!
the stocks are all dropping!
daddy lost around $450 000!!!
i was shocked, but,
he actually tell me nevermind!
if the $$ is mine,
i should heart pain like hell!
alrights,
i'm having a terrible backache,
the whole day,
shoulder & tights, unbearable..
due to _ ____ ___ ____ ___!
serve me right! - will you care?!
i'm just your toy, your doll..
you need it, you use it..
you don't need it, you dump it..
am i right?!
this is what everyone's telling me,
that makes me feel so insecure..
where's the warmth & secure,
i used to have & own so much?!
KOH JIAWEN IS BREAKING DOWN..
bitches & bastards,
don't care about me,
let me cry all i want..
i'm seriously confused,
i don't even know what i want,
the only thing i'm clear about is,
I WANTED HIM BY MY SIDE BADLY!!!
when will this day come?!
instead of feeling happy like before,
i felt sense of guilty,
everyone is comforting me that,
it's not the way i am thinking,
but, i just feel it this way..
i can't tolerate, sharing my baby..
do you understand?!
if i'm not important to you,
you can just ignore everything..
i'm starting to miss you now ):
