supossingly to be damn happy about the outcome..
but,
why do i feel bad?!
why am i feeling miserable?!
KOH JIAWEN!!! - stop it!
telling myself that everythings' over,
yet, i am crying like fuck!!!
everything is so damn unrealistic..
am i really glad that he's back?!
then, why am i so scared?!
i am just pure USELESS!!!
baby,
tell me why am i feeling this way ):
i'm afraid that you'll lie/cheat on me,
am i thinking too much?!
i tried very hard to stop myself from thinking,
but, i just can't stop myself from it ):
HHHEEELLLPPP!!!
where's the confident jiawen used-to-be?!
maybe just afraid that you'll leave me, again..
can't be too happy/excited too early..
i might fall even deeper into the love..
you told me before whenever,
we quarreling or want to break,
you always say,
promises are meant to be break..
so, i dare not ask you promise, anymore~
because once you promised,
i'll be like an idiot, treating it seriously..
yet, get slammed by your words hard..
sad to say, but, have to,
i love you even more than before,
but, i don't trust you as much... ...
maybe is your actions that,
made me scared & afraid of you..
alot of questions coming to me,
but, i dare not ask you... ...
i know, i am silly, stupid & idiotic!
let time heal my wound alright?!
if you want to hurt me again,
warn me first, before you did..
at least let me get prepared that,
our patching up won't last long... ...
but if you really love me,
don't let me cry anymore,
i'm more than enough tired of it... ...
let me tell you why am i feeling insecure..
i am not sure whether,
is it true that you've no feelings for her..
i feel that, my coming back,
is happening at the wrong time..
i am so guilty, you know?!
at 1st,
i am so scared that i'll lose you to her,
yet, now,
i've got you back, i feel guilty... ...
i am such a useless bitch... ... ... ...
i am afraid of losing you,
yet,
i wanted you so badly..
i'm so fucking confused ):
i love you more than you could imagine..
