KOH JIAWEN IS MY BIG BIG NAME!

I LOVE TODAY~

2009-04-18T07:32:00.000-07:00

i am so tired, you know?!
slept around 4am, wake up at 7am..
just to get prepared to find my bastard..
yet, he still says, i'm late!!!
never pamper me still bully me! - nevermind (:
wanted to sleep, but can't, don't know why..

saw his mother, i suddenly turn very quiet?!
but, i still talk okays! just abit lesser than before (:
then, his mother nagged about our "past"?!
we was like ( ya ya ), but, i still respect alright!
baby was like, bullying me the whole day?!
HAHAHA.. - little naughty bastard (:

wanted to snap him in bus,
but, when i just on the camera,
he asked me, whether what am i trying to do..
then, i quickly act as if i've did nothing at all (:
in the end, still managed to take pictures :DD

upload it?! oh yes, i will surely upload!
because there's photo of him sleeping~

got snapped by him~
i look damn "cui"~

yeah! my turn to snap him (:

he look so "qian da" right?!

this looks handsome, is it him?! - LOLS!

alright, he's sleeping.. - shh~

he look damn adorable in this photo..

don't try to snatch, he is mine :DD

i love today alot alot, damn alot..

kind of misses the "past" of ours..

but now, everything's back!

baby is still my baby, forever mine (:

iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou
iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou
iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou
MWARKS~~~

YEAH! make up kit!!! =D

2009-04-17T07:14:00.000-07:00

i have been eating vanilla ice-cream waffle this few days!

YILING & ME~

our pendicure classroom!

our facial & massaging room!

my tool box!!! =DD

the contents inside tool box!

full set of brushes!!! ( 12 pieces )

makeup set!!!

60 eyeshawdows, 12 lipgloss, 6 blushers!!!

i am excited because of the brush set & makeup set (:
beauty therapy students are so lucky to have all this!
none beauty therapy students, don't envy us okays!
1st term of lessons, we are learning,
basic makeups, facial, medicure, pendicure..
2nd term of lessons, we are learning,
spa, body massage & a choice of our own..
be it advanced makeups or nails art or body massage..
theory lessons are fun, but, too much things to memorise..
scared that my brain can't function well,
because, there's too much medical names for body parts..
even nails structure & skeleton, we also have to learn ):

charlie, charlie, let me explore your body well,
in order to memorise your every parts, i'll try loving you!
beauty therapy students should know who am i refering :p

end of week one, class rules, damn alot, damn strict..
who ask us to be so lucky, having a discipline mistress as our CA..
CLASS RULES :
1. bun up hair neatly, no covering of eyebrows..
2. strictly no fake eyelashes and waterproof makeups..
3. no coloured hairs and contact lenses..
4. only light makeups are allowed..
5. strictly no alterings of uniforms..
6. grace timing of 5 mins..
7. no braclets, anklets or necklaces..
8. no extempting of classes for more then once a week,
be it with medical leave or not, you'll be expelled..

aiming for higher nitec next year, after completing..
because a new course is coming out!!!
it is a continuing course for beauty therapy,
called spa therapy, teaches spa & aroma of oils..

i love my bastard loads!!!
i know you love me loads too (:

I KNOW I AM CUTE!

2009-04-16T07:09:00.000-07:00

today, i'm actually very happy,
but, before ending school,
my mood fall abit,
after release, my mood,
went to fucking unhappy!
i felt like crying, you know?!
but, it's shame to cry in public..
nevermind, forget it,
i don't wish to elaborate more..

i'm waiting for tomorrow!
all april intake,
beauty therapy students,
sure love tomorrow!!!!!
YEAH! our make up kit (:
eye shadows, lip gloss,
full set of brushes,
artificial nails, eyelash curler,
damn alot more things!
woohoo~
but, sad is that there's a principle talk ):
well, me, yiling, wanxin & meiyi,
can play with our make up kit,
during our 2 hours lunch time =DD

baby, i'll stay by you no matter what..
just like you've asked me to trust you (:
forever, promised, just only US!
i love you, my dearest bastard!
i will, hh, kk, tt, ll, bb, ff with you (:
forever & ever & ever, mwarks (:

I AM STILL IN SCHOOL ):

2009-04-16T00:34:00.000-07:00

EFC LESSON ROCKS!!!
i love ms madeline phua~

to wanxin :
too bad, i've uploaded it (:
i'll upload new photos of us~

bla bla bla..
nothing better to post about,
go home then update again (:

baby, take good care of yourself!

HYPER at first, EMO in the end!

2009-04-15T06:36:00.000-07:00

sadded, yiling didn't come today ):

ME & MEIYI (:

went to lobster place to eat lunch..
the food there was okay?!
meiyi tears drop down,
because the chicken was too spicy for her..

dinner went to eat vegetarian western (:

SHE'S WANXIN (:

ms berlyn tan, my FTY teacher..

ms madeline phua, my EFC teacher..

both very interesting =DD

saw the makeup kit.. - woah!

damn nice, the bag is in black,

the brushes & makeup, so fantastic!

i am happily waiting for friday,

1st. getting makeup kit!

2nd. going find my bastard!

end up, ms eng said that,

friday's principle talk is compulsory,

it's from 3 pm - 4.30 pm,

i so damn pissed off & disappointted, you know?!

sorry baby, i can't accompany you ):

i'll make it up for you A.S.A.P (:

it's a promise from me, okays?!

MWARKS, i love you so so much!!!

I'M IN COLLEAGE EAST!

2009-04-14T06:56:00.001-07:00

1st day of school, i am SHY!
but, took the initiative to make new friends..
1st person i met was beatrice... ...
later is yiling & meiyi, then i keep talking,
but meiyi was damn shy, typical emo kid!
in library, i was so boring, yet,
i said it out loud, " very boring! ",
then a girl turn and look at me, laughing,
that's how i got to know her, wanxin!

2nd day of school, i am HYPER!
i met wanxin & yiling in cafe 1 before reporting..
i damn talkative you know!
guess what?!
wanxin, yiling & meiyi was talkative today (:
they are my newest ~~LESBIANS~~!!!

me & meiyi (:
yiling & me (:
forgot her name already, but find her cute,
so i took photo with her, but, don't balme me,
because she is not my classmate!
so, it's normal to forget her name (:

saw someone i don't wish to meet in sports hall,
don't need say, you guys know who am i refering..
i am good at pretending right?! - i know~

keep joking the whole day, creating laughters,
even miss eng also cannot stand my unseriousness,
everyone was laughing like mad with my kuku remarks..
HAHAHA! HAHAHA! HAHAHA!

bullied by my bastard, go find him,
still requested me to buy drink for him!
nevermind, i am willing to do so (:
i love you, but ... ... ... ... ... ...
well, just can't really post whatever i want,
because i've got restricted by MR. BASTARD!

trust you, trust you not?!
she's so damn "pretty"!
love me, love me not?!
how much can you sacrifice for me?!

random, random, random..

2009-04-12T06:09:00.000-07:00

yesterday, weizhi came find me, stay overnight too!
i am not boring at all (:

cam-whoring in coffee shop... ...

started cam-whoring after we went smoking at void deck far from coffee shop..

don't jealous okays! we're ~~lesbains~~ also, she's my bitch too!

stupid poses all the way, laughters & craps =DD

actually, weizhi wanted to take the both of us in this posture,

but, her shaky hands made her phone snap only me~

cam-whoring in my room... ...
does she look like a prevertic person?! - obviously!

cam-whoring in mrt station... ...

accompany her go jurong~

this is snapped by weizhi, end up, she shot my breast?! -LOLS!

i am disappointed in my bastard's attitude..

haiz... ...
went to find daniel awhile, then, off i go..
no mood, no appetite, no smiles... ...
let daniel accompany me till ang mo kio mrt station,
i said that i'll go home alone, but, what i did?!
i walked home from there~

used 1 hour 15 mins to walk..
a cruel way to torture myself right?!
let me tell you what i did... ...
i am wearing a shoe that gives me blisters,
but, i don't care & let it blist even more..
since, i can't behave like i did in the past,
my bitches don't allow me to cut myself,
i also quitted the habit of venting on others,
so, i used this method! ( it seriously works )
well, my feet pain like hell, but, ENDURE!!!
because, the pain can help relieve my mood swings (:
i know that i am going to regret i torture myself this way,
because, it's going to be a fresh day in a fresh mood,
yet, i still having blisters that i caused purposely!!!

FUCKERS!!! - pissed off~

2009-04-10T10:52:00.000-07:00

alright, remember the post on 20th february?!
well, i'm pissed off because of that!!!!!
pcb, ccb, fucking asshole slut!

to my bitch :
i found out who is that TRICIA..
here's her link, she've got 2 blogs..
http://tsurizulife1992.blogspot.com/
http://triz-lone.xanga.com/weblog
indeed, she's so fucking "pretty"!
her "hotty-sexy" body induces people to fuck her!
i seriously felt like vomiting suddenly... ...
take a look, you'll understand why am i sure,
that she's that fucking shameless, slutty dog!
i don't even know her, yet, she got my link!!!

read her post on 2nd april,
that makes me call her a SLUT!

i just got to find out who is that FELICIA,
then, i shall handle them all together..
act till they're so fucking angelic,
i thought they'll be better looking than me,
yet, YUCK, still dare critize me... ...

i seriously should go find out who's the guy,
that fucked her when she's drunk that day,
thank him sincerly & tell him that his taste suck!

do you remember that,
she still says that you're her bestfriend?!
fuck her off okays, all rubbish!
she's a friend of HENRY, instead!

critize me, you & yongseng together,
now is my turn to critize her... ...

ccb, no difference from that hamburger,
but, at least hamburger look sweeter... ...
still dare come critize about us!!!!!

my day was fantastic at first,
but, after 10pm, it suck!!!!!
1 fucking guy, "panda", seriously irritate me!
still let me found out about that SLUT!
nevermind, i can vent all my anger,
on this 2 fucking irritating people!!!
ARGHS!!!

can't get so pissed,
or else got wrinkles..
not worth it, for them..

YAWNS..

2009-04-10T00:21:00.000-07:00

slept so early, i'm tired..
i'm boring when waiting for your reply,
and, when i'm boring, i'll always think alot..
happy or sad, all linked together... ...
luckily, when waiting got people accompany me,
thanks aloysius, mingsiang & daniel (:
at least, i've ways to forget about it~

sort of surprised when i realised that,
liting & zijie's started together on the 17th too!
wanted to console michelle,
not to be too sad, but, give up... ...
because, she's a stubborn girl..
so, i just listen whatever stories in it,
best way is, not to give any comments..
i just don't want her to cry alone..
if i'm beside her, maybe i'll say alot,
but, we're just talking on phone & msn,
i am unable to console her,
so, tried not to make her cry again... ...
i'm a good bitch, yea?! - LOLS!

so many people asked me to invite them,
because i privated my blog, but,
sorry bitches & bastards,
your wishes are not granted!!!
only 1 female & 2 males are allowed in..
which is peiying, yongseng & darren... ...
well, maybe after a few more days,
i will public my blog back again... ...

the weather's so bad today,
makes my mood drop ):

i miss you baby~
when can i hug you to sleep in such cosy day?!
in a cosy way, with loads of loves & kisses... ...
when can i be filled with laughters again?!
in a satisfied way, laugh & smile from heart... ...
when will you kiss me gently again?!
with your gentle eyes, comforting me... ...
am i asking too much from you?!?!?!
i miss the way you feed me
i miss the way you hug me from behind
i miss the way you surprised me
i miss the way you kissed me suddenly
i miss the way you covered me with warmth
i miss the way you teased me in every ways
i miss the way you holding my hands tightly
i miss the way you acting like a small kid
i miss the way you asked me to kiss you
i miss the way you do your everything... ...
i really miss everything alot~

缘分究竟是跨越多少障碍
才把你送过来
送到我的身边来疼爱

what the fuck am i thinking?!

2009-04-09T12:43:00.000-07:00

supossingly to be damn happy about the outcome..
but,
why do i feel bad?!
why am i feeling miserable?!
KOH JIAWEN!!! - stop it!

telling myself that everythings' over,
yet, i am crying like fuck!!!
everything is so damn unrealistic..
am i really glad that he's back?!
then, why am i so scared?!
i am just pure USELESS!!!

baby,
tell me why am i feeling this way ):
i'm afraid that you'll lie/cheat on me,
am i thinking too much?!
i tried very hard to stop myself from thinking,
but, i just can't stop myself from it ):
HHHEEELLLPPP!!!

where's the confident jiawen used-to-be?!
maybe just afraid that you'll leave me, again..
can't be too happy/excited too early..
i might fall even deeper into the love..

you told me before whenever,
we quarreling or want to break,
you always say,
promises are meant to be break..
so, i dare not ask you promise, anymore~
because once you promised,
i'll be like an idiot, treating it seriously..
yet, get slammed by your words hard..

sad to say, but, have to,
i love you even more than before,
but, i don't trust you as much... ...

maybe is your actions that,
made me scared & afraid of you..
alot of questions coming to me,
but, i dare not ask you... ...

i know, i am silly, stupid & idiotic!
let time heal my wound alright?!

if you want to hurt me again,
warn me first, before you did..
at least let me get prepared that,
our patching up won't last long... ...
but if you really love me,
don't let me cry anymore,
i'm more than enough tired of it... ...

let me tell you why am i feeling insecure..

i am not sure whether,
is it true that you've no feelings for her..

i feel that, my coming back,
is happening at the wrong time..

i am so guilty, you know?!

at 1st,
i am so scared that i'll lose you to her,
yet, now,
i've got you back, i feel guilty... ...

i am such a useless bitch... ... ... ...

i am afraid of losing you,
yet,
i wanted you so badly..
i'm so fucking confused ):

i love you more than you could imagine..

终于雨过天晴了！(:

2009-04-09T00:01:00.000-07:00

许佳雯会从此笑着渡过每一天！
好了，我不会拿爱情做比较，
因为，没有人会比我更爱你，
也没有人会比你更加疼惜我，对吗？！

我还真的被你吓到了，没想到，
你还会记得我们，所有的第一次 (:
这次，我真的相信，你是真的爱我。。

真爱，真的须要面对考验，
我们才能变的更坚强，更懂的珍惜与爱对方。。

许佳雯，很爱，很爱， MR. BASTARD！
MR. BASTARD，你有多爱许佳雯呢？！

no more unwanted quarrels,
no more stubborn attitudes..
like we've promised?!
will we love each other more than before?!
for me, obviously YES !
treat me better alright?!
i will love you, forever!!!
don't ever lie/cheat on me (:
MWARKS ~

why am i still feeling sad?!

2009-04-07T23:15:00.000-07:00

我不知道你说的那一句真，那一句假。。
或许我真的为难你了，但是，
有哪个女人愿意和别人分享她的爱人呢？！

回到我的爱情世界里，感觉那么的不实际。。
我好像一个阶入别人生活里的第三者。。
这种感觉，很不好受，你知道吗？！
原本属于我的他，竟然沦落到，
需要和别人挣夺一个他的地步。。
这样，还不够悲惨吗？！
我好害怕，怕，要是他真的离开她，
过后，他抱我，亲我时，脑海里，
会不会在想着她？！
这样的感情，我宁愿放开手。。
爱一个人，应该是甜甜的，
为什么，我非酸甜苦辣都尝津不可？！

i should be happy since you're back,
but, why do i feel everything so unrealistic?!

how much do you really love me?!
choose yourself,
who you really want the most..
if it's her, i'll give my blessings..

i don't know why am i thinking this way,
but, i really felt so insecure... ...

ever since that day,
i'm back to the jiawen..
who'll cry everyday.. - HELP!

i'm so scared that she've already,
taken away part of my share,
which is actually in your heart..
am i thinking too much?!

will you lie to me about her?!
will you still love me whole-heartedly?!
will you?! will you?! will you?!

i felt like hugging you now,
cry & pour everything out,
then let everything past... ...

i'm so afraid to lose you again,
do you know that?!
but, i also don't want to share!
can you step into my shoe,
think more for me,
understand how i feel?!

there's so many questions in my mind,
i don't dare to say, don't dare to ask..
keeping it all to myself is unbearable..

there's already a wound in me,
now, i have to accept my fate?!
will i be losing you to her?!
will you choose me than her?!
do you have feelings for her?!
all my questions are all with,
an unknown answer... ...

i know that crying's no use,
but, why am i still crying?!

i've been thinking of our past,
comparing to now,
is this the type of relationship,
you longed & wanted?!
if yes, let me go, please..

i'm willing to care & love you more,
i'm willing to wait no matter what..
but, i seriously can't bring myself,
to share you with her... ...

i'm so scared, you know?!
because, the longer,
you & her together,
the chance for falling,
is even higher..

who knows?!
maybe she might even,
take over my position..

i once said that,
i want to be your first & last..
but, it seems like,
i can only be your first... ...

you're afraid of hurting her,
so, must well, choose,
to hurt me instead (:

up to you... ...

who you love more,
then choose who... ...
i'm ready for defeat..

i don't want your lips,
if you & her kissed before..
or rather,
i don't want to,
______ with,
someone who don't,
love me whole-heartedly..

i shouldn't have pinned hopes..

2009-04-07T09:00:00.000-07:00

i should not pin so much hope on him..
he's gone missing in action ( MIA )..
what for i care so much?!
you've got your girl to dote on you..
still say whatever bullshit to me ):

maybe my bitches are right,
you should have fallen for her already..
or else,
prove to me that my bitches are wrong!

daddy taught me how to read the stakes,
telling me how to calculate... ...
and, guess what?!
the stocks are all dropping!
daddy lost around $450 000!!!
i was shocked, but,
he actually tell me nevermind!
if the $$ is mine,
i should heart pain like hell!

alrights,
i'm having a terrible backache,
the whole day,
shoulder & tights, unbearable..
due to _ ____ ___ ____ ___!
serve me right! - will you care?!

i'm just your toy, your doll..
you need it, you use it..
you don't need it, you dump it..
am i right?!
this is what everyone's telling me,
that makes me feel so insecure..
where's the warmth & secure,
i used to have & own so much?!

KOH JIAWEN IS BREAKING DOWN..
bitches & bastards,
don't care about me,
let me cry all i want..
i'm seriously confused,
i don't even know what i want,
the only thing i'm clear about is,
I WANTED HIM BY MY SIDE BADLY!!!
when will this day come?!

instead of feeling happy like before,
i felt sense of guilty,
everyone is comforting me that,
it's not the way i am thinking,
but, i just feel it this way..
i can't tolerate, sharing my baby..
do you understand?!
if i'm not important to you,
you can just ignore everything..

i'm starting to miss you now ):

i wish that you belonged to me! - too bad

2009-04-07T03:27:00.000-07:00

有时候，一个人的思想会变，不是因为她想通了，
而是因为她一直都不敢面对，现在，她终于看开了！
她从来就没想过要放弃他和她的爱情故事。。。
或许她回来的不是时间吧！他都已经和另个她在一起了。。。

爱一个人，就一定要包容他的一切吗？！
那么，他有没有包容过我的所有一切？！
为什么，我的爱情路须要那么坎坷？！
爱对方，为什么不能在一起？！
他真的不爱她吗？！还是，他只是在敷衍我？！
就算我说的太直接，我也要说。。。
眼看着一个原本属于你的他和她在一起，你会好受吗？！
我等，可是，要我等多久？！
一年？！两年？！十年？！
要是你们很幸福，须要我等到你们结婚吗？！
还是，继续等到你们会离婚？！
你这样的处里方式，对我公平吗？！
你有没有试着了解我内心的感受？！
我爱你，但是，我的忍耐有限！

我以经学会了，
是我的，就是我的，
不是我的，勉强也没用。。。
我不想再受伤了！你明白吗？！

如果，你是真的爱我，就证明给我看，
答应过我的事，就要做到，
否则，我应该会选择放弃了吧？！
这样子，应该不会让你为难吧？！

whenever i cry, there's always people there for me..
thanks peiying, weizhi, ramesh, michelle... ...
well, you guys are superb, you know why?!
because, all your critizings make me laugh..
i seriously felt better now, no worrys! (:

alright, i'm stupid, naive & idiotic... ...
but, i seriously can't help it... ...
i've tried my very best to hide my feelings,
but, whatever i did, doesn't seem to help much..

i should be happy, but, why am i crying?!
maybe, he really meant what he said, who knows?!

to MR. BASTARD :
if you're afraid that someone might read this post,
want to confront me, save it to yourself... ...
because, it'll only shows that,
you concern about her feelings more than mine..
if you think that i'm unreasonable,
let's put a stop to everything,
i shall just treat as nothing happened!

i'm just saying,
but if you really want to do it this way,
i will grant the wish for you (:
i love you~

I AM LOST!!! - confused

2009-04-06T08:48:00.000-07:00

don't really know what should i post about..
i don't think i have the right to say whatever..
i'm happy, glad, satisfied..
but,
in the main time,
i'm also sad & confused... ...
you should know why is that so..
i don't like this feeling ):

alright, crying also won't help,
so, must well, stop myself from it..

to my bitch :
don't scold me, okays?!
i know, i'm silly & stupid..
you know my character well (:

will anyone teach me,
on whether how should i handle..
i'm seriously ~~hurt~~ confused!

leave all the feelings to myself,
as, i've promised, not to blog out..

yup, i'm wasting $$$!
few weeks ago i just went for extension,
now, i trimmed my hair short... ...

but, it's out of no choice, okays!
miss eng will be nagging at me,
for not cutting my fringe!!!
i don't want to get lectured,
before i step into the class..
i'm a good student (: - lols!

SORRY AARON~
i didn't bomb you in purpose!

how i ~~hope~~ want you to be mine..
belonging to only JIAWEN/JINGWEN..
instead of another person... ...
will it happen?!

i finally realise,
how much it hurts,
when you actually try,
convincing yourself that,
IT'S ALRIGHT - when it's not!

jiawen's useless..
can't even let someone,
she wants the most,
to be only her's..
one & only... ...

where's the promise you once made?!
do you mean what you say?!
do you really love me, miss me?!
i hope so,
i don't wish to get hurt again..
seriously, i can't accept the fact ):
i love you baby, i mean it... ...

100 questions! ( i'm bored )

2009-04-05T00:49:00.000-07:00

INTRO;

Real name
jingwen, jiawen?!

Nickname(s)
too much to list out~

Male or female
obviously, female!

Primary School
rulang primary school..

Secondary School
yuan ching secondary school..

Hair color
black & dark brown?!

Tall or short
short?! i'm 155cm (:

Loud or Quiet
it depends!

Phone or Camera
both!

Health freak
nope, but, diet freak!

Drink or Smoke?
both! - bad, i know~

Do you have a crush on someone?
nope, but, LOVES someone :p

Piercings
ears only..

Tattoos
none currently..

Long or short hair
obviously, it's not short!

Shorts or skirts
it depends..

Boy or girl
i'm a girl, of course!

HAVE YOU EVER;

Been in an airplane
yup..

Been in a relationship
yup..

Been in a car accident
not yet..

Been in a fist fight
no?!

FIRSTS;

First piercing
ears~

First best friend
joanne?!

First award
leadership?!

First crush
ivan?! alvin?! whichever~

First kiss
in train..

First vacation
4 years old, united kingdom :p

LASTS;

Last person you talked to
mummy!

Last person you Msg
MR. AOENGG & kane..

Last person(s) you watched a movie with
forgotten xp

Last food you ate
fried noodles..

Last movie you watched
coming soon?! sex drive?! who cares~

Last song you listened to
never be replaced (:

Last thing you bought
nutri soy!

Last person you hugged
naas?! weizhi?! not sure~

LOVES;

Food
too much to list out!

Drinks
winter melon tea, carrot juice & papaya milk..

Clothing
as long as i'm comfort with it on (:

Books
magazines & non-fiction storybooks..

Songs
too much to list out!

Flower
lavender..

Colours
black, white, violet, baby pink & sky blue..

Movies
i'm addicted to dramas only!

Phrase
fuck you, go & die!

Subjects
whatever i study in school..

IN 2008, I;
[] Kissed in the snow
[] Celebrated Halloween
[x] Had your heart broken
[x] Went over the minutes on your cell phone
[x] Someone questioned your sexual orientation
[] Came out of the closet
[x] Done something you've regretted
[x] Broke a promise
[x] Hid a secret
[x] Pretended to be happy
[x] Met someone who changed your life
[x] Pretended to be sick
[] Left the country
[x] Tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
[x] Cried over the silliest thing
[] Ran a mile
[x] Went to the beach with your best friend(s)
[] Stay single the whole year

CURRENTLY;

Eating
nothing..

Drinking
nothing..

Touching
my laptop & handphone..

Listening to
你不属于我了 by 杨丞琳

Plans for tomorrow
go MR.AOENGG house, take my things..

Waiting for
pictures to upload..

YOUR FUTURE;

Want kids?
can i still give birth?!

Want to get married?
obviously, yes!

Careers in mind
beautician/ beauty consultant..

WHICH IS BETTER WITH GUY;

Lips or eyes
lips xp

Shorter or taller?
obviously taller!

Romantic or spontaneous
romantic will do, i don't go for $$!

Nice stomach or nice arms
both?! - i'm greedy~

Sensitive or loud
both, during the correct time..

Hook-up or relationship
hook-up, unless he's serious..

Trouble-maker or hesitant
obviously none! i hate it~

HAVE YOU EVER;

Lost glasses/contacts
none..

Ran away from Home
nope..

Hold a gun/knife for self defense
nope..

Killed somebody
nope..

Broken someone's heart
yup..

Been arrested
nope..

Cried when someone died
obviously yes!

DO YOU BELIEVE IN;

Yourself
yeah, of course!

Miracles
yup (:

Love at first sight
nope..

Heaven
nope..

Santa Claus
nope..

Sex on the first date
no way!

Kiss on the first date
maybe?! blehs xp

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY;

Is there one person you want to be with right now? Name?
obviously yes, but don't know he wants or not.. MR. AOENGG!

Are you seriously happy with where you are in life?
not really, my life story is complicated ):

Do you believe in God?
nope..

This is the 100th and last
yeah! finally!

yesterday & today~

2009-04-04T03:31:00.000-07:00

cousins came over to play...
joked with my uncle,
overall, laughters surrounded!!!
me, aunty & alicia
me & darren

me & amanda

yesterday went to college east, again..

for interview & medical checkup..

found out that, people studying,

beauty therapy, have to be ~~rich~~!

because,

payment for the checkup, $43.20!

have to buy own toolbox, $84!

1 textbook & notes, $60!

there's still alot to go... ...

miss eng said, altogther $400+,

excluding school fees.. - woah!

the nurse can't aim properly,

poked my left hand - no blood!

poked my right hand - twice!

i pity myself~ pain okays!

changed for x-ray,

the robe i wear,

so cute!!!

congratulations to myself!

i'm into the course,

but, have to wait,

if medical fail... ... ... ...

( touch wood~ )

YEAH! i've grown taller (:
YEAH! i've lost 8kgs (:
someone reading this would be jealous..
me too, won't state out, who are you,
just to tell you that, pinching & taking photos,
with asfar is not a big big deal! - hmph!
i'll have my chance soon (:
HAHAHA~

i got MR.LEINAD..
19, single, handsome & cute!
studying in ___ polytechnic..
jealous le bahs?! -blehs :p

I'M FINALLY BACK (:

2009-04-02T14:14:00.000-07:00

YEAH! YEAH! YEAH!
I'M FINALLY BACK HOME!
I MISS MY ROOM & LAPTOP..
HAHAHA~

warning to some people ( you should know who you are ),
kindly respect my properties, DO NOT grab any photos..
i don't need unwelcomed surprises like seeing my pictures,
on your phone or even your computer screen, i will hate you guys!
to unfriendly kids out there, i don't need your comments on my post!

ALRIGHT, LET'S GET STARTED~

23RD OF MARCH'09

saw this super big brinjal, found it very cute (:

24TH OF MACRH'09

aaron come find me at night to slack,

then, he's so good, accompanied me till 3.30am!

i don't dare climb up the roof-top,

that's why snap shot him instead!

guess what is he doing~

i saw 'xiao qiang', because i'm scared,

he go torture it, by burning it.. LOLS!

25TH OF MARCH'09

i love KINDER JOY!

i'm eating it everyday~

super right?! carrying 2 babies together!

went to taman jurong cc,

don't know how long i took to build up my courage,

going that place is like stabbing myself hard!

saw him~ but it's no longer like before anymore ):

i've got no guts at all, okays!

yet, this 2 guys carried me up to the roof-top,

i straight away turn jelly~

funny right?! scared still can take photos..

because, the 2 of them helping me to divert my attention!

HAHAHA~

* don't bring me up again, i'll cry... ...

well, i did cried, but it's not because of i'm scared,

i cried because we chatted about him... ...

thanks for accompaning me till 4.40am (:

27TH OF MARCH'09

supposingly going back to yuan ching,

but, there are 2 PIGS!!!

asked me to meet them 10am,

yet, till 2pm then i managed to contact them!

so, instead of going back,

i went to find MR.YFBKSS... ...

after that, went to find my bitch... ...

watched "sex drive", damn hilarious~

28TH MARCH

whole day being a good girl,

stayed in, playing & cam-whoring,
for the whole day, power right?!

there are 'cui', cute & idiotic photos for the day (:

alright, this is stupid, i know!

laugh out loud, laugh all you want!

it's entertianing, i'm entertianing myself too~

29TH MARCH

went to aunty house,

then snatched computer from my cousins,

i'm a bad sister?! no okays!

i dote them alot~

30TH MARCH

whole day stayed in,

played & watch drama... ...

not boring at all :p

31ST MARCH

meet aaron, then went back yuan ching,

take our graduation certificate... ...

so many people asked me,

why i passed, but don't go sec 5~

this soup look nice?!

cooked by aaron, not bad..

i finished all okays!!!

good girl~ LOLS!

1ST APRIL

my baby brother also learn smoking already!

he look so damn cute with ciggerate on right?!
HAHAHA~

went to taman jurong cc again,

intended to hide away,

when me & weizhi planned to run off,

the "dragons" release already... ...

went to s11, saw him again!

felt like hugging him, but,

he's no longer my boyfriend ):

outstanding person in s11,

only she can be hardworking,

it's almost 11.30pm already!

weizhi say we look like couples~

LOLS!

aaron got his michelle already!

me & aaron shared this stingray,

he ate it with rice, then ask me want or not,

i answer him don't want, because fattening..

LOLS!

while waiting for our stingray,

we call leqian & disturb him :p

HAHAHA~

bad girl?!

there's one more bad girl,

but, i can't snap her... ...

bad boy?!

LOLS!!!

me & my sisiter,

we love cam-whorings!

guess who is this~

kennard!

we saw him at the lift lobby,

at the liangs block... ...

guess who is this~

vincent 'momo'!

he's with kennard... ...

as you can see,

there's a police car right behind him,

we almost got screened,

but, managed to act & hide away (:

my 1st time,

letting people fetch me,

using bicycle!!!

i so scared okays~

2ND APRIL

my brother's so cute~

that's all,
lazy to type so many things,
let all those photos summarise... ...
nite nite peeps (:

THIS POST IS SPECIALLY FOR A TEACHER

2009-03-31T04:21:00.000-07:00

MISS ELLYA FROM JURONG PRIMARY SCHOOL
there is no need me for a self-introduction,
my particulars are all stated above clearly,
want to clear all doubts with me?!
CALL ME AT 94659639 -personally

everyone who is reading my blog,
please kindly comment on this teacher (:

being unreasonable towards a 7 years old kid,
upon seeing her student being bullied,
but she only scolds the victim instead,
don't even listens to students' explaination..

school rules stated :
girls, long hair should be neatly tied or plaited..
only black hair accessories are to be used..
fringes should be kept way above the eyebrows..

there are numerous female students having long hairs,
this particular teacher scolds 1 of the student,
demands only this student to cut her hair,
instead of asking all the girls in the class to do so..
hair length just over shoulder by 7-8cm, is this LONG?!

there are informations i got,
saying that this teacher is also,
showing favourtism always,
treating some students "fairly"..

lastly, i'll updated about my past schedules, maybe on friday (:
2nd time posting without using my laptop... ...

DELAYED!

2009-03-25T04:24:00.000-07:00

POSTINGS WILL BE DELAYED,
AS I WON'T BE AT HOME,
FOR ALMOST 2 WEEKS!

UPCOMING POST WILL BE,
LOADED WITH PICTURES,
ALSO WILL BE DAMN LONG (:

1st time not posting using my laptop... ...

THANKS ALOT (:

2009-03-22T10:40:00.000-07:00

TO ALL THE BEST ~ :
i don't know why didn't you state down your name,
do i know you?! ( or do you know me?! )
thanks for your concern (:

TO ALOYSIUS :
read clearly!
it's really too early to tell me,
about your concert thing!!!
now is only MARCH, mister (:
but, must remind me again,
when the concert date is approaching,
i promise, i sure find free time,
go see you on stage, performing,
your speciality on JAY CHOU'S DUET!

TO DANIEL :
yeah! yeah! yeah!
happy or not?! - LOLS!
so coincidence right?!
when i want go find you,
just nice, you not working!
see you soon, naughty boy (:

TO AARON :
confirm with me on whether,
what time & where you want to meet..
i won't bomb you, no worrys!
that day is very important to me (:
going be another pack scheduled day for me... ...

TO MR. D ( forgot how to spell your name ) :
ps! ps! ps! -LOLS!
thanks for all your craps today (:
but, your imaginary, damn good!
i strongly recommend you to,
singapore autism school! -LOLS!

TO 1 CHILDISH FREAK :
kindly stop all your fucking nonsense,
before i'm pissed off by your childish reactions!
you don't really know me well,
yet, you're using your little brain,
that only contains shit, to critize me!
i wonder, did you really pass 'n' level?!
do you passed your english examination?!
seriously, i don't give a damn on your sarcastic remarks!
but, really, go buy 1 dictionary, read throughly,
what is the difference between bitch & slut!
fucking wake up your immatured thinking,
i'm not for you to place you stupid remarks,
i'm also not someone you can afford to mess with!
know more about my character,
before you try to find trouble with me!
if you really want to find troubles with me,
find me straight, call me at 94659639,
settle face to face, 1 to 1, dare or not?!
YOU ARE NOT FIT TO BE MY FRIEND!
don't you ever dare talk to me,
when you see me in person,
because, i sure won't give you, your pride,
not a single sympathy i will ever give you from now on!
FUCKING STAY FAR AWAY FROM ME!
I HATE CHILDISH IDIOTS LIKE YOU!

don't bother to ask who am i refering to,
or else, i might also turn nasty to you... ...

WHY, WHY, WHY... ...

2009-03-21T11:29:00.000-07:00

why do i feel so pain?!
why am i still missing you?!
why don't dare to face you?!
why am i such a coward?!
why am i so useless?!
why am i still sheding tears?!
why is it that i have the urge?!
why do i want to hug you?!
why, why, why?!?!?!

i miss you!!!
baby, i meant it..
i really miss you..

why is it that
eveytime when i'm alone,
i'll always be thinking of you?!

why is it that,
there is always people,
reminding me of you?!

why is it that,
i still can recieve,
every single news about you?!

why is it that,
i miss you so much,
but, don't have courage to face you?!

why is it that,
it has been soo long,
i still can't get you out?!

why is it that,
i keep refraining my tears,
but, it just keep rolling down?!

why am i always acting?!
why am i always lying?!
i know very well that,
people around me,
don't wish to see me this way,
but, i just can't help it ):
how, how, how?!?!?!

where's the jiawen,
who used to have the courage,
to face every obstacles?!?!?!

when did i become so useless?!
why is it so difficult to stop missing you?!
why am i bluffing myself that someone,
can actually take over your place in my heart?!
where is the jiawen 2 months ago?!

i miss you soo much, do you know?!

i'm crying typing this post,
because it hurts alot..
really, really hurts... ...

22nd of march,
we've broken up 2 months..

i've not been crying,
for almost 2 weeks..
but today,
i really can't stop it..

i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you..
i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you..
i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you..
i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you..
i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you..
i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you..
i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you..
i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you..
i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you..
i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you..
i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you..
i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you..
i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you..
i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you..
i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you..
i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you..

YES! I NEED YOU~

2009-03-20T11:36:00.000-07:00

YEAH!!! YEAH!!! YEAH!!!
happie~ happie~ happie~
because... ... ... ... ... ...
iie'm goin 2 c euu soon!
euu wait! - blehs (:
it's gonna be moii dae!
euu're gonna be mine soon!
HAHAHA... ...
iie admit tat iie miss euu larhs,
miss euu soo damn alot, okaes?!
moii naughty naughty boy (:

everitym work, work, work..
nv accompanie mii de lorhs!!!
onlie msg, msg, msg nia ):
iie'll veri sad de lehs!
HAHAHA... ...
nvm, 4gif euu nw (:
wait til iie c euu,
iie sure let euu DIE!!!
dun everitym sae iie,
veri evil or naughty, okaes?!
cos euu more evil den mii!!!

promise euu tat iie'll trie,
brush him off moii mind a.s.a.p,
dun complain 2 much worhs!

euu good! reallie good!
go slp soo earlie 2dae,
but iie cant blame euu..
iie reallie veri scared lorhs,
den euu tell mii euu wanna slp?!
HAHAHA... ...
iie 4gif euu, once (:

maybe iie'm readie?!
iie'm nt veri sure yet,
but all iie can sae is,
euu reallie mean quite alot 2 mii nw..
everitym iie gt prob,
scared, borin or slp-less,
1st person iie find is euu (:
euu alwaes nv fail 2 make mii,
LAUGH~
euu alwaes noe when iie am,
BORING & FREE..
iie wonder do euu hv,
supernatural powers?!

everitym oso euu ask mii,
whether iie gt miss euu anot,
nw is moii turn 2 ask euu,
MR. LEINAD, euu miss mii anot?!
HAHAHA... ...
dun everitym surprise mii, okaes?!
iie scared ltr iie gt heart failure..

DUNNO WAT IIE REALLIE WAN..
IIE STILL MISS & LOVE HIM,
BUT, NW, IIE'M SLOWLIE,
DEVELOPING FEELINGS 4 HIM!
OMG~ PLS TEACH MII,
WAT SHOULD IIE DO NW?!?!?!

iie found tat iie've changed,
quite alot actuallie..
usuallie dun crave 4 ice-cream,
nw, iie'm eatin ice-cream!
it's 3.25am nw... ...
dun scold mii 4 eatin,
ice-cream soo late (:
euu noe iie'm cravin 4 it..
iie'm actuallie eatin,
chocolate flavoured!!!
iie reallie dun seem 2 be moiiself~
HAHAHA... ...

ppl tends 2 change,
4 mii,
nt onlie moii character changed,
moii taste & personalitie oso changed!
AMAZING!!! - new life!

but,
iie'm still confused,
about moii own feelins..
do iie reallie wan 2 wait 4 him,
or should iie trie him or him?!
messie & complicated! - iie noe!

aaron chew jia hao!
euu reallie make mii hv cramps lorhs!
can euu imagine all those thgs euu said,
iie laugh lyk dunno wat..
SEND MII 2 HOUGANG PLS!

jiawen is random~~~
love him, love him not?!
leave everything to,
F-A-T-E (:
if we're meant to be,
we'll be togather~
if we're not meant to be,
i'll be with elseone~
i really hope is the 1st,
but,
lesson learned..
i wish he's here,
hug & kiss me to sleep,
like he always do,
when i'm feeling scared..
but,
now,
he don't seem to be the one,
concerning about me anymore~

LONGER HAIR!

2009-03-19T11:10:00.000-07:00

today's schedule was packed!

went to my bitch's house,
waited for her whole solid 40mins!
dressed up, make-up... ...
by the time we went out,
was around 5pm already!

trained to cityhall,
to return bitch's uniform..
trained to bugis,
to buy bitch's shoes,
but, sadly, no size!
met jac, mh & xq..
end up i'm the one,
wasting time in bugis!
went for hair extension,
$30 only, cheap, cheap!
25 strands at the back,
12 strands at the side..
obviously that my hair's,
GROWN LONGER!!!
trained to aljunied,
to find bitch's god-dad,
found out more about,
my future life,
shocked & scared... ...
( shall not state more on this )
meet aaron & michelle,
at for our dinner,
which happened to be,
my 1st meal for the day!

after eating,
left only me & aaron,
heading to st james togather..
when wisely saw me,
he was like shocked?!
because the 1st thing he say is,
"huh?! jiawen, you smoke also?!"
i just smiled back to him..
it's obvious okays!
i didn't know that he'll,
come out so fast,
i was holding onto cigg,
when he saw me... ...
then, he asked why is it,
only me & aaron went,
so, i explained to him that,
she, she have to go home early,
she, he never confirm with me,
he went home straight before 8pm!

planned to go inside,
but end up,
i wasted my $18!!!
bought the ticket,
save it for rememberance!
saw the queue, -sian!
heard that someone,
is also inside, -more sian!
reason?! -erm..
i don't want to face him?!
feels weird... ...
wisely keep asking why,
i don't want to go in,
is it because of him?!
i said no & i'm lying!
then, i asked aaron to,
accompany me wait for cab,
i just went home,
without going inside!!!

the cabby is so irritating!
keep talking nonsense to me,
when i asked him to turn right,
he keep repeating,
turn right arhs?!
i'm so pissed off, you know?!

reached home,
daddy asked me how st james..
asking me is it fun,
how come go clubbing,
so early come back home..
i just answered that,
i bought the ticket,
then i went home with it!
he asked me why is that so,
then i told him that because,
someone i don't dare to face,
was there having fun too... ...
lucky, daddy understands,
never scold me for wasting $$..
he told me not to be sad,
just go for the next up-coming event,
he will sponser! -i smiled..

today got naggings from,
my dearest bitch, twice,
because she don't let me smoke,
she also saw those bloody scars,
on my arm when i'm taking photos..
i know you care for me, bitch (:

overall my day was,
normal in the morning,
hyper in the afternoon,
fantastic in the evening,
pissed after 10pm... ...

don't understand,
why am i always hiding,
why don't i dare to,
face him personally?!
do i still have feelings for him?!

FFAADDEEDD!!

2009-03-18T14:03:00.000-07:00

FUCKERS ARE ALWAYS,
LIKE THIS :

LYING TO SOMEONE,
THAT HE LOVE ~~HER~~!

ENSURING THAT,
HE'LL ALWAYS BE,
THERE FOR ~~HER~~!

DUMPING SOMEONE,
WHEN SHE EVENTUALLY,
NEEDS HIM THE MOST!

FLIRT WITH ELSEONE,
WHILE HURTING ~~HER~~!

DOING THINGS THAT,
HE NEVER,
INITIATED TO DO BEFORE!

THINKING HIGHLY,
OF HIMSELF,
WITHOUT SPARING,
A THOUGHT FOR ~~HER~~!

SELFISH WHEN,
HE KNOWS CLEARLY,
THAT ~~SHE~~'VE,
GIVEN UP HOPES!

TREATING ~~HER~~,
TOTALLY INVISIBLE!!!

TREATING ELSEONE,
WITH MORE,
CARE & CONCERN,
OR EVEN,
LOVE WHICH,
ACTUALLY MEANT,
TO BE ~~HER~~'S!

ACTING THAT,
HE CAN DON'T CARE,
ABOUT ~~HER~~ ANYMORE,
THE FACT IS,
HE'S ACTUALLY HIDING,
HIS OWN FEELINGS!

GIRLS,
DON'T GET CHEATED,
BY FUCKERS LIKE,
I'VE STATED ABOVE!!!

THEY HAVE THE PATIENCE,
TO CHEAT ON YOU,
EVEN UP TO YEARS!

LYING TO YOU,
THAT HE LOVES YOU,
SO GOD DAMN ALOT,
BUT ACTUALLY,
IT'S ALL BULLSHIT!

WARNING :
IF YOU EVER SEE,
YOUR GUY,
TREATING ELSEONE,
MUCH BETTER THAN YOU..

GO AHEAD,
HATE HIM FOREVER!
CURSE HIM WITH,
THE MOST EVIL WAY,
YOU CAN EVER THINK OF!

IF YOUR GUY,
EVER HURT YOU DEEP,
NEVER FORGIVE HIM!
DON'T BE ~~SOFT-HEARTED~~!
THIS KIND OF FUCKERS,
ARE PLAIN USELESS!

IF YOUR GUY,
DUMPS YOU ALONE,
WHEN YOU NEEDED HIM,
THE MOST AT THAT TIME..

WAIT FOR HIS RETURN!
SLOWLY, GENTLY,
HURT HIM BACK,
TWICE AS MUCH AS,
HE'VE HURT YOU BEFORE!

I HATE YOU!!!
I HATE YOU!!!
I HATE YOU!!!
I HATE YOU!!!
I HATE YOU!!!
I HATE YOU!!!
I HATE YOU!!!
I HATE YOU!!!
I HATE YOU!!!
I HATE YOU!!!
I HATE YOU!!!
I HATE YOU!!!
I HATE YOU!!!
I HATE YOU!!!

YOU JOLLY WELL KNOW,
WHO YOU ARE, RIGHT?!

I'VE LEARNED TO BE,
SO GOD DAMN BITCHY,
ALL CREDITED TO YOU!

TREATING ELSEONE,
BETTER THAN YOU'VE,
TREATED ME BEFORE?!

LOVES, SPENDING ON,
ELSEONE WITHOUT,
FEELING A PINCH?!

I DIDN'T KNOW THAT,
AFTER BREAKING OFF,
YOUR TASTE GOING AFTER,
OTHER GIRLS HAVE CAHNGED,
SO GOD DAMN "EXCELLENT"!

CONGRATULATIONS!
YOU'VE FOUND SOMEONE,
WHICH ME & MY BITCHES,
THINK THAT SHE IS,
TOTALLY C-M-I!!!

WE CAN'T THINK OF,
ANY WORD/PHRASE,
TO CRITIZE HER!

IT IS BECAUSE,
HER "BEAUTIFUL" FACE,
SHOWS EVERYTHING,
THAT WE WANT TO SAY!

WELL,
I THINK I SHOULD,
JUST STOP IT HERE,
HIS HEART'S SHATTERING,
BECAUSE ME & MY BITCHES,
GIVING "COMPLIMENTS",
ON THAT ESLEONE!!!

TYPED THIS POST,
WITH HURT & HATE..
ACTUALLY FELT,
SORT OF ANGRIE,
BUT, FORGET IT!

TYPED HALFWAY,
WISLEY MESSAGED ME,
IT'S 5.30AM NOW,
THE MESSAGE SHOWED :
LATER NIGHT,
CONFIRM GOING, RIGHT?!
DON'T BOMB ME AGAIN AH (:
I'M LAUGHING WHEN,
I READ THIS MESSAGE!

I ADMIT THAT I'M ALWAYS,
BOMBING PEOPLE NOWADAYS!
VERY SORRY ):
I DON'T MEAN IT, OKAYS!

I'VE POLLUTED MY BLOG,
BY POSTING ABOUT ELSEONE!
MY DEAR BITCHES,
LAUGH ALL YOU WANT!
SHE SHOULD HAVE THANK ME,
FOR NOT TYPING OUT,
OUR "NICE" CONVERSATION,
ABOUT HER "ANGELIC" FACE,
ON HER "HOTTY-SEXY" BODY!
HAHAHA... ... HAHAHA... ...

GOODBYE PEEPS,
ENJOY YOUR DAY,
IT'S REALLY WORTHLESS,
BRAWLING OVER SOMEONE,
WHO DO NOT KNOW HOW,
TO APPRECIATE YOU!

random, random, random..

2009-03-17T11:44:00.000-07:00

I MISS YOU ALOT!
IS THAT FINE?!
LOLS! - dun sae iie bad!
you should know who are you,
if you feels the same as me (:

intended to post about yesterday,
in the end,
i put my intentions aside!
because my post will be damn long..

saiful called me,
i thought was prank,
because he changed no.!
when i answer the phone,
he keep saying "hello hello"..
i'm damn pissed off, you know?!
after i scolded awhile,
he laugh and say he sad,
because i don't regonise his voice!
LOLS!
i'm fiery~

aaron called me,
told me some personal things,
i'm quite shock actually,
when he said those things..
but, i have to stay calm!
first time he's so serious~
but, i understand..
forget about it, boy!

my dearest sister called,
but i told her that i'm not free,
then hanged up the phone..
sorry babe!

my dearest bitch,
asked me to call her,
yet i replied i'm not free too!
LOLS!
understandings needed (:

my gummybear called,
i replied her the same way..
see you soon (:

i'm going for new hairdo!
YEAH!!!
i die also asking daddy for $$$!
because, i don't wanna spend mine!
LOLS!
i know i'm a "bad" daughter,
but, i have the right (:

daddy ask me wanna change phone?!
i was like, huh?!
i just got it less than 1/2 year!
although i wanna change,
but, i felt that it's a waste..
so, changed my mind ):

L.A.-ed today,
yet, i don't know~
because i never bring "bread"..
took $$ from daddy,
than ran to buy!
it's lucky that,
my "big-aunty" haven't reach (:

mummy spent $95!!!
just trimming, colouring..
daddy's heart-PAIN!!!
he was complaining whole day,
that 18 carlsberg GONE!
thanks to mummy's hair~
LOLS!

next, going to be ME!
daddy ask me don't burn him..
LOLS!
i replied "see how"..
he don't know how many,
bottles of carlsberg will "break"..
LOLS!

today only me & daddy..
mummy went relaxing!
ownself go eat big feast!
shopping & pamperings!

i am so damn idiotic..
i used scissors to cut,
the burger's meat,
yet, stupid me,
i cutted my plam!
fucking pain!!!
no choice,
but to endure..

fried currypuffs,
fried wings & fries,
i scald myself again!
even scald my hand,
when packing RICE!
what the fuck~

forget that i L.A.-ed,
i drink winter-melon tea!
tummy pain like hell..
ARGHS!!!

3 days straight,
eat only one meal,
in one day~
mummy wanna kill me!
but, i really no appetite,
so, she've got no choice..
i keep wanting vomit,
why is that so?!?!?!?!?!
don't say i'm pregnant! - impossible~

going back for counselling,
further check-ups,
very very soon..
AGAIN! - yarhs ):

counsellor says that,
i'm self-harming,
so, no choice,
have to go back,
see her AGAIN!!!

shidah darling messaged me!
MR. YFBKSS & MR. LEINAD,
messaged me asking something,
very personal indeed!!!
i shall not say more (:

a very BIG mistake!
someone asked me whether,
i and aloysious togather now?!
i was laughing all the way..
we're just FRIENDS okays!

why don't you people ask about,
MR. YFBKSS or MR. LEINAD?!
i didn't even use their real name,
isn't that a very weird thing?!
why ask me about the guy that,
i typed out his name eventually?!
ROFLMAO~
just stop guessing about who am i with,
i won't even leak out a single news!!!!!
I'M SINGLE, UNATTACH, UNAVAILABLE!
they're just guy FRIENDS of mine (:

found out one BIG news!!!
enjoyable?! sadded?!
i don't know about,
my own feelings toward,
this particular matter..
but, for me, currently,
it's obviously a GREAT news!
shh.. i won't say it here (:

goodbye dear peeps!

I LOVE MY HAIR! =D

2009-03-15T12:36:00.000-07:00

didn't went zouk 2dae ):
due 2 some reasons..
sorrie 4 bombin guys!

to moii bitch & moii sister :
thanks 4 accompanin mii NT attendin!
LOLS! - iie love euu, babes!

let's wait 4 thrusdae!
cant go zouk,
we go st james powerhouse!
steady larhs,
iie dun bomb tis tym okaes?!
HAHAHA..
sorrie 4 bombin soo mani tyms,
but, iie reallie nt free okaes!

went 2 read MR. AEONGG's blog,
which nv update 2 daes straight!
well, iie dun reallie mind..
due 2 iie dare nt tok 2 him,
iie shall sae it here (:
maybe cos tat dae iie'm over-boarded,
feelin guilty after saein tat iie hate him..
but hatin him wasn't de fact, seriouslie!
sorrie 4 moii reckless-ness tat nite..
btw, takkie care of euurself,
dere's no more gerl gerl beside euu,
4 euu 2 complain on hw tough is trainin,
no more gerl gerl 2 sayang euu,
no more gerl gerl to attend 2 euur injuries!
dun noe y iie dun hv de face 2 tok 2 euu..
stay happie 4eva, dun care bout mii animore (:
hope euu can find de 1 euu longed soon..

moii dae was high todae?!
iie'm fuckin crazie..
felt damn guilty after tat..
can euu imagine,
iie'm moodie,
yet iie screamed at yuxuan!
poor boy, he's soo scared..
iie'm such a useless sister ):
sorrie yuxuan 4 screamin at euu..
all tat fuckin maid fault! - ccb!

overall,
can sae tat,
moii dae sucks..
sucks 2 de core!
jiawen's damn fuckin useless nw..
tried 2 crie moii heart out,
but no tears came out..
hw miserable it is!
funnie rite?! - hahaha~
even though,
MR. YFBKSS & MR. LEINAD,
msg mii 2dae,
but moii mood is lyk... ...
it jus didn't cheer up..
HAIZ.. - agrhs!
hw can iie smile yet,
feel moodie at de same tym?!
am iie crazie?! - turnin nuts~
IIE WANNA KILL MOIISELF!!!
ANI MURDERER?! - urgentlie needed!
moii life after he's gone,
sucks 2 de fuckin centre of hell!
or, even worst off den hell... ...

iie miss euu loads ):

2009-03-14T13:31:00.000-07:00

Singer: Dingren
Pianist: Aloysius Neo
Drums: Kenrick Chia
Guitarists: Sebastian/Wei Jian

aloysius send mii tis & ask 4 moii comments..
yet, guess wat iie sae?!
iie told him tat,
iie saw 1 damn shuai de shuai ge!
LOLS!
he was lyk.. -durh!
HAHAHA..
managed 2 fool him tis tym round (:
but after tat iie did made moii comments!
afterall, it's nt bad worhs!
aloysius said tat durin de 1st song,
the singer damn cui..
LOLS! - iie agree..

8 hands, 2 pianos!
one word, FANTASTIC!

cos of aloysius keep sendin mii videos,
helpin 2 soothe moii mood,
iie actuallie fall in love with pianos!
AMAZING RITE?!

SURPRISED!!!

2009-03-13T11:57:00.000-07:00

wake up ard 3pm todae,
ate lunch + dinner at 5pm..
den serve net till damn sian,
oso dunno y no mood ):

maybe cos of all those probs goin on...
chat wif 1 of moii bitch on phone,
due to her moody-ness,
made mii more moody!!!

luckie tat, MR. LEINAD,
msg mii at 8.38pm (:
he cheered moii mood up..
thanks alot, boy!
HAHAHA... ...
touched sia!
he said sth tat surprised mii!
LOLS! -happie?!

good tat no one remind mii bout, MR. AEONGG!
or else, iie sure curse tat person 4 life!!!
yarhs, iie still do love him,
but, slowlie, he will not,
be moii cup of tea animore! -nid a long tym
if he can be heartless 2wards mii,
y nt mii doin de same 2 him?!

cre8-ed a new blog,
oso a new messenger (:
so,
add mii in b_itchy-personality@hotmail.com,
view moii new blog in bitchy-personality
but, iie'll onlie start postin on it on april (:

2009-03-12T10:53:00.000-07:00

don't even know what should i do now!
to let the matter rest or make it big?!

so damn alot people concerning,
messaged & called me,
asking me what happened...
i'm explaining the same topic for the whole day!
well, i didn't realise until today,
that soo many of my ~~bitches~~ & ~~bastards~~,
reading my blog without tagging me!
thanks for all your concerns!
it's really not a big matter,
there's no need for you guys to help me (:
alright, i don't go okays?!
i let the matter rest okays?!
just because some of you heard those things,
you guys are actually more agitated than me!
since you all insist that if i want to make it big,
you all will be there with me,
I DON'T WANT!!!
i've said soo many times,
i don't want to make it big!
no choice,
but to give up ):
( but i want my pride back!!! )

to my dearest ~~bitches~~ :
THANK YOU FOR ALL THOSE,
CRAZIE IDEAS ON HOW TO ___...
but, i won't use that way to handle...

to my dearest ~~bastards~~ :
THANK YOU FOR ALL THOSE,
CURSINGS & HELPINGS ON ___...
but, i don't want to make it ugly...

to someone who love friends more than me :
- I DON'T NEED THEM TO APOLOGISE ALREADY!
CAN?! HAPPY?! SATISFIED?! ( i don't care~ )
you ought to thank my ~~bitches~~ & ~~bastards~~!

lessons learned!
i've finally found out,
what kind of guy is he!
worth it or not,
isn't important to me,
ANYMORE!!!
i shall force myself to stop missing him,
i shall force myself to stop loving him,
just like you guys told me everytime,
i'm too ~~naive~~ to wait whole-heartedly,
he's always hurting me... ...
the words he said, always so sharp,
leaving my heart bleeding, hurting with scars... ...
i give up,
really give up!
no matter how hard i try,
it's also no use!
he's just pure heartless towards me ):
did he really belonged to me once?!
did he ever loved me whole-heartedly?!
to me,
the answers can be seen clearly by his actions now!
love him?!
love him not?!
i'm seriously confused!
i'm afraid of being hurt by HIM again... ...
i'll always remember this answer from him,
" my friends are more important! "... ...
from the 1st time i heard this thing,
i cried, always, afraid of him leaving... ...
it was almost 1 year ago,
he answered my question this way,
outside of yuan ching secondary school!
that kind of hurt is always non-earasable... ...
will he stay by me if i really want him back?!
i don't really think so,
his feelings for me has already vanish!
2 years relationship,
sweet but unreal!
promises he made,
his always lying!
stay with me forever?!
i'm your only girl?!
all bullshit right?!
I HATE YOU!
HATE YOU FOR LEAVING ME!
HATE YOU FOR HURTING ME!
but,
STILL LOVE YOU WITH MY EVERYTHING... ...

I'M FEELING
DAMN
FUCKING
MISERABLE!!!

I'M JUST NOTHING, BUT A COWARD!

2009-03-10T13:00:00.000-07:00

in your blog, euu said euu dun wish 2 hurt anione, esp. her!
but, euur dun wish 2 hurt anione is alreadie unforgivable!
cos euu've alreadie hurted mii wae & far too much!
iie jus dun understand y am iie still soo ~~devoted~~!
last tym, in de past, once euu ask mii 2 go find euu,
iie confirm agree no matta wat, fled down fast!
nw, presence, iie dunno y, y am iie runnin awae?!
y am iie soo afraid 2 face euu once again?!
iie seems 2 be de 1 flippin over words iie said!
iie said b4 iie'll let go of euu, yet REGRETTED!
iie'm actuallie still waitin 4 euur return, back 2 moii side!
WHAT THE FUCK AM I THINKING?! -turnin nuts~

when 2 coffee shop worked 2 daes straight!
damn shag!!! damn tired!!! damn stress!!!
ytd ( tuesdae ) more suay... ...
imagine,
curry puffs -sold out! ( i ask daddy dun fry.. HAHAHA! )
popiahs -sold out!
lamb chop -sold out!
rice -not enough!
it's nt even 9.30pm!
iie met tis kind of situation!!!
den after tat,
iie was lyk... ...
keep apologise 2 customers,
saein tat their orders,
is an impossible mission 4 mii!
frm 5pm til 9.40pm,
iie'm soo damn freakin busie!
cant even sit down 4 jus onlie 2 secs!
cant even go toilet 2 release moiiself!
cant even get a sip of water jus infront of mii!

moii abodmen pain lyk hell whole dae,
but iie keep quiet nv sae,
cos iie wan mummy 2 relax herself..
super suay is b'cos,
abodmen pain -nvm!
cut til finger -nvm!
scald by oil -nvm!
kana by daddy -nvm!
4gettin orders -nvm!
nv eat anithg -nvm!
headache -nvm!
due 2 iie'm rushin moiiself,
iie almost slipped!
luckie tat iie nv slip,
or else iie'll damn paiseh!
but,
sprained moii ankle -aww~
nw moii feet abit swollen!
havin ulcers suddenlie ):

haiz, seems lyk it's jus nt moii dae..
haiz, seems lyk iie'm gettin worst!
hw come moii abodmen will pain lyk hell?!
hw come iie feel dizzy the whole dae?!
scared ltr go back 4 checkup,
doctor will gif mii BAD news!
moii blood pressure has alwaes been LOW!
iie shall die, dead, death, veri ~~soon~~?!

iie realised tat iie've alwaes been lying!
lying 2 moiiself, tat feelins had faded!
but, iie've found out tat it wasn't de truth!

!ylread uoy ssim i ~ i miss you dearly!
!uoy evol llits i ~ i still love you!

THANKS ALOYSIUS (:

2009-03-06T11:52:00.000-08:00

DUE TO MY BAD MOOD,
ALOYSIUS DON'T KNOW HOW TO SOOTHE ME,
HE SIMPLY JUST SENT ME THIS VIDEO!!!

to my surprise,
this is what he usually do in school!
dun care about the girl singing! -extra..
admire ALOYSIUS playing the piano ~
NOT BAD WORHS ~

thanks for soothing my mood with this (:
everytime when i bad mood,
you always have ways to soothe my mood... ...

I'VE CONFUSED MY OWN FEELINGS!!!

2009-03-06T07:23:00.000-08:00

supposingly going hospital in the morning,
but, just got changed, my phone rang... ...
* picks up phone *
counsellor : hi, jiawen, are you planning to come today?!
me : of course larhs! i'm ready to set off!
counsellor : erm, i called just to confirm with you.
i'm actually not free today, so,
would you mind if i change it to next week?!
me : hmm, okays... ...
counsellor : sorry uh! let you wake up so early.
me : i never sleep lo! don't need apologise, nevermind!
counsellor : see you next week at 10am, after your checkup... ...
me : sure, sure... ... bye!
* actually i'm abit pissed off by that call ~ *
changed back to home-clothes,
lie on bed serve net whole morning!

i feel so damn tired, but,
i don't know why is that so,
i can't bring myself to sleep!!!

today, quite alot of things happened,
without me taking any precautions!
so many things that startled me... ...

obviously one of it is someone that ___ me!
my life is so damn freaking scary now!!!
him, him, him, him, him, him & him... ...
how i wish i could run away from this!
but, too bad, i've got to face it ):

promised JASIMAN that i'll go back,
end up, i gone airlines again! -sorry!

promised MR. YFBKSS* & MR. AEOING*,
that i'll go find them, but, till now,
i still have not fufil my promises!

no mood to pick up phone calls,
all thanks to one couple... ...
STOP QUARRELING EVERYTIME!
don't ever threathen her again by saying you want to BREAK!
she've been crying so much for you,
yet, you're so plain heartless?!
if you don't want her anymore,
tell me & break off FAST!
then, i can intro guys to her better than you!

to you, you & you : there won't be a chance! -give up please!
to you, you & you : i just need time to settle it! -happy waiting!
lastly, please kindly don't shock me with that kind of ____... ...
i don't wish to get heart-attack at such a young age (:
HAHAHA.. HAHAHA..
sorry if there's some misunderstandings between us ):
-hope you know that i'm refering to you!

CANNOT SLEEP!!! * watching [爱杀17] *

2009-03-05T11:39:00.000-08:00

i'm actually watching 2 different shows at the same time!
watching [爱杀17] & [爱就宅一起]... ... -not bad (:
but sort of scary because of de murderings... ...
nvm! at least i'm NOT bored!

6 more hours, i'll be nagged by doctor!!!
HHHHHEEEEELLLLLPPPPP!!!!!

i bet i won't be sleeping (: -don't scold me okays!
i'm sleeping at 4+ everyday now,
how am i going to adjust back?!
( school's starting!!! ): )

i'm trying very very hard now,
to forget MR.AOENGG*!!!
shall i try accepting MR.YFBKSS* or MR.LEINAD*?!
( i guess only peiying knows who am i refering to... )

i just need sufficient time to consider!!!
thanks for being understanding towards me (:
GOOD NEWS! i'm not brawling over him anymore~

don't even know how to face him so soon ):
just hope won't meet him in school -impossible ):
i'll get to see him everyday very soon!!! -happy (:
because he's having holiday, no need go for lesson (:
woah~ can't wait to go find him during lunch breaks (:
i'll spare some FREE time to go JURONG!
just for the sake of him and her (: -i promised!

BORING AT HOME!!!
should i or should i not accept the job?!
giving pre-school tutions,
can i cope with it?! -i hope so...
don't want to get sack out of the blues... ...
( very attractive salary given! ) -depends... ...

BUCK UP JIAWEN!!! -kambateh!

1. MUST BRUSH HIM OFF A.S.A.P!
2. MUST STOP GOING AIRLINES!
3. MUST FUFIL ALL PROMISES!
4. MUST WORK HARD FOR OWN SAKE!
5. MUST TRY ADJUST TO SLEEP EARLY!
6. MUST CONTROL ONESELF!
7. MUST NOT GIVE FALSE HOPE!
8. MUST TAKE GOOD CARE OF MYSELF!

i found myself giving false hope to the 2 J's -STOP IT!
i found myself keep going airlines nowadays -P.S!
i'll make up next time! -i promise (:
sorry for BOMBING you guys ):
accept my apologise?! -LOLS!
i apologised alot times already!!!
sorry for going airlines for more then twice ):
( esp. to peiying & michelle... ... )

to peiying : i'll go BOONLAY find you! no worrys!
to michelle : i'll find you when i go meet him, okays!

BLISSFUL?! * confused by my own feelings *

2009-03-04T10:39:00.000-08:00

need to go for another checkup AGAIN! - 6th march..
need go for counselling session AGAIN! - 10th march..

DAMN HOSPITAL!
why send me that fucking letter?!
i don't want to go back soo many times for that damn CHECKUP!
nothing's gone wrong! but everytime kana nagged!
doctor : your blood pressure is LOW! must take care!
counsellor : don't ruin your health because of him!
usual lines i'll always hear from same people!!! !!!

SOMETIMES, WE CAN'T JUST LOOK AT THE APPEARANCE,
WE SHOULD GO FURTHER & SEARCH FOR OUR OWN ANSWERS!

iie've confused moiiself wif moii own feelins..
wat de hell am iie thinkin bout?!
iie've tried soo hard 2 gif up,
yet, am iie retrenchin tis tym?!
iie reallie hope tat it wasnt de truth!

once a guy smiles to her,
her heart has melted for him!
once a guy buys her a house,
she's ready to give him a home!
once a guy provides a sperm,
she's willing to bare him a child!
once a guy says " i love you ",
she've already given him her heart!
does he really know what she wants?!

she have not forgotten about her past..
she still have feelings for him, although it has FADE!
but, she do not understand why,
why did she fall for him already?!
she don't want to get hurt AGAIN... ...
will that him give her the happiness she yearn?!

why is she still concerning about that him?!
he don't even really cares about her!
he's busy asking her for the hand,
why did he keep doing things to hurt her?!

she keep saying that she've gotten over him,
but, why does she feels hurt whenever she heard about him?!

why is she afraid of going to school?!
why is she afraid of facing him?!
why is she always running away?!

should she just give up him
and go on for him?!

she really needs time to consider!!!

2009-03-03T05:04:00.000-08:00

嗨。。为何有那么多无聊的人来这里闹事呢？！你们只知道说别人和挑出别人的缺点，难道你们自己就没有缺点吗？！为何你们要把时间和精力浪费在这种无聊的事上。世界上就是有太多像你们这些吃饱没事做的人了。社会败类。。没有找你们的‘查’。你们却自己找上门来。。诉说：“无聊的人往往都会被无聊的事物所吸引”。噢。。对了。我承认了我这里是有无聊的事物（对你们而言）。不过，同时你们也承认了你们是无聊人！不回你们是因为我打算了不要做无聊的人了。拜拜！

POSTED BY 2ND OWNER : HOE PEIYING (:

2009-02-28T10:19:00.000-08:00

why is she still waiting for his return?!
time to forget, he won't return to her side..

maybe time can fade off her feelings for him..

but, memories will never be erased!

she always love him, as much as before (:

no one can replace him in her heart..

due to henry request, i shall add some rantings!

HAHAHA... ...

to henry : i don't want go hell find you, so, stop dropping!

to aloysious : not worth getting pissed off by HER!

to michelle : don't always quarrel with him, he still LOVES you!

to myself : forget about him and carry on with your life!!!

QUOTES... ... * do you sense my pain *

2009-02-25T09:31:00.000-08:00

if your gonna make me cry,
at least be there to wipe away the tears

wanting him is hard to forget,
loving him is hard to regret,
losing him is hard to accept,
but even with all the hurt I've felt,
letting go is the most painful yet... ...

you're the one who broke my heart,
you're the reason my world fell apart,
you're the one who made me cry,
yet i'm still in love with you and I don't know why!

i'm going to stay with you because you need a friend,
but thats all I'm going to be..
No more sex, no more hands in places they shouldn't be,
no more giving you my heart so you cant stump all over it..

you hurt me more then i deserve, how can you be so cruel?!
i love you more then you deserve, why am i such a fool?!

it's not my fault if i can't help looking at you..
it's not my fault if i can't stop calling you..
it's not my fault if i cannot forget you..
my only mistake was to fall to much in love with you..

even though you lied, even though you pretended to care
i can't seem to get you out of my mind..
even though it seems like i should be over you,
with every tear that falls,
it reminds me of how much i am still in love with you..

it hurts to see someone you love ignoring you,
it also hurts to see that he doesn't feel your love..
it hurts even more to know that he loves you too,
but he just doesn't want you to know..

what do you do when the only person who can stop your tears
is the one making you cry?!

STOP GIVING ME CREEPS!!!

2009-02-24T07:48:00.000-08:00

TO : ________ ... ...
( you should know who are you! )

DON'T GIVE ME CREEPS PLEASE!
I DON'T KNOW YOU!
WE CAN BE FRIENDS,
BUT CAN'T BE STEAD..
I HAVE MY OWN STAND..
RESPECT ME!!!

CONVERSATION THAT GIVES ME CREEPS!
CLICK TO READ!

* told DANIEL about this FUCKER who give me creeps,
he just keep laughing at me! what the hell!!!
keep saying 'sayang sayang' LOLS..
but, at least he comforted me (:
i'm so scared of this guy okays!
seems more like PERVERTIC to me... ...

DON'T PESTER ME IF YOU REALLY "LOVE" ME, THANKS!

A BIG THANK YOU!

2009-02-23T09:48:00.000-08:00

HEREBY THANK PEOPLE WHO HAVE BEEN THERE FOR ME (:

THANKS FOR YOUR CONCERN -
AARON
AICHEN
CHUNHUI
ENXIONG
FARAH
HENRY
JASIMAN
JINSHENG
JSON
JUNICE
LESLIE
MICHELLE
PEIYING
POHJIAN
RAMESH
SARAH
SHIDAH
WANNING
WEIZHI
WENYONG
XINYING
YIFA

THANKS FOR YOUR CRAPS -
AARON
CHUNHUI
JINSHENG
MICHELLE
POHJIAN
SHUANGYAO
WISELY
ZHENGHAN

THANKS FOR YOUR LAME JOKES -
AARON
BOONMIN
DARREN
HENRY
JINSHENG

THANKS FOR YOUR COMPANION -
AARON
JINSHENG
MICHELLE
PEIYING
SHIDAH
WEIZHI
YIFA

THANKS FOR YOUR "GRANDMOTHER STORY" -
JUNICE
PEIYING
WANNING

THANKS FOR YOUR SLEEPLESS NIGHT -
ALOYSIOUS
AARON
DANIEL
JINSHENG
MICHELLE
PEIYING
WEIZHI
YIFA

THANKS FOR YOUR LISTENING EARS -
AARON
JINSHENG
PEIYING
SHIDAH
WEIZHI

MUST FUFIL PROMISES TO ( i won't forget! ) -
AARON
AICHEN
JASIMAN
JINSHENG
JUNICE
MICHELLE
PEIYING
POHJIAN
SHIDAH
WENYONG
YIFA
YONGSENG! ( bad deal! )

THANKS FOR ALL YOUR EVERYTHING... ...
I'M LEARNING, STILL LEARNING HARD... ...
GIVING UP IS A DIFFICULT TASK... ...
NO MORE CHANCE, WHY SHOULD I STRIVE ON?!
STUPID ME RIGHT?!
CARRY ON WITH MY NEW LIFE... ...
COME ON GUYS!
I'M GIVING YOU A CHANCE,
IF YOU HELP ME IN FORGETTING HIM,
I WILL CONSIDER YOU (:

* i know you read my blog, i'm giving you the chance now!
like i told you before, i'm not that easy to jio... ...
3 of you listen up, this is the only chance i'm giving,
before i change my mind again, grab it... ...
( don't say i not good liao horhs! all your names also stated above! )

ENTERTAINED ONCE AGAIN!!! =D

2009-02-23T08:16:00.000-08:00

ANOTHER SHAMELESS DOG
BARKING IN MY TAGBOARD!
WELL, I'M HERE TO ENTERTAIN DOGS!!!

TO : DUMB FWARKED

SAD FOR YOU... ...
BUT, AT LEAST YOU KNOW THAT,
YOU'RE REALLY DUMB!!!

FANCY MESSING WITH ME NOW?!
I'M NO LONGER THE JIAWEN,
YOU CAN AFFORD TO MESS WITH!

BLOODY FUCKER,
WHY DON'T DARE USE YOUR NAME?!
OR IS IT YOU'RE TOO SHAMELESS,
ABOUT THE NAME YOUR PARENTS GAVE YOU?!

1ST,
YOU'RE JUST A COWARD!
DON'T EVEN DARE TO USE YOUR NAME..

2ND,
CONTINUE SPAMMING MY TAGBOARD!
I'M NO LONGER THE SOFT-HEARTED JIAWEN..

3RD,
I'M ALWAYS A JOKER & A LAUGHING STOCK!
PEOPLE WHO REALLY KNOW ME,
SHOULD KNOW I ALWAYS LAUGH NON-STOP (:

4TH,
I BET YOUR ENGLISH FAIL!
IS LAUGHING STALK, NOT STOCK..

5TH,
YOUR 'RECEPTION' IS LOUSY!
ME & PEIYING IS ALWAYS TOGATHER,
ME & WEIZHI DIDN'T QUARREL,
JUST THAT NEVER CONTACT MUCH..

6TH,
YOU'RE AN IDIOT!
I'M NOT THE ONE FINDING HER..
CHECK PROPERLY BEFORE YOU BARK!!!

7TH,
YOU MUST BE SEEING GHOST!
I'M NO LONGER IN YUAN CHING,
HOW CAN I BE A LAUGHING 'STOCK' OF YCSS?!

8TH,
YOU NEED CHECKUPS BY VET!
WHO ON EARTH TELLS YOU THAT I'VE NO FRIENDS?!
DO YOU NEED ME TO GIVE YOU ALL THE CONTACTS?!
I BET MY FRIENDS ARE MORE THAN YOURS..

9TH,
YOU'RE JUST A PETTY GUY!
THERE'S NO NEED FOR ME TO FIND WZ OR PY!
THEY'RE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME!
IN FACT, IT'S NOT JUST ONLY THEM!

10TH,
YOU'RE REALLY DUMB!
PLEASE TAKE NOTE THAT,
YOU AREN'T SUPPOSED TO BE MESSING WITH ME!

KINDLY STOP BARKING,
BE BACK THE HUMAN
YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE!

IT'S SOO DAMN FUCKING OBVIOUS,
I KNOW WHO ARE YOU!
GET AWAY BEFORE YOU PISS ME OFF... ...

I'M ALWAYS USING
DIFFERENT ATTITUDE
ON DIFFERENT PEOPLE!

THERE'S NO NEED FOR ME TO SHOW
THE GOOD SIDE OF ME TO YOU,
THIS KIND OF SHAMELESS COWARD!

JUST LIKE HENRY SAID,
IF I'VE OFFENDED YOU,
WHY NOT TYPE OUT YOUR
FUCKING SHAMELESS NAME
TO LET EVERYONE KNOW WHO I OFFENDED?!

I BET YOU WILL FAIL YOUR ENGLISH FOR YOUR 'O' LEVELS!

1ST,
YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW THE DIFFERENCE IN LAUGHING STOCK & LAUGHING STALK!

2ND,
PEOPLE CAN'T USE DIFFERENT FACE TO FACE DIFFERENT PEOPLE, THEY CAN ONLY SHOW DIFFERENT CHARACTERISTIC & DIFFERENT ATTITUDE ON DIFFERENT PEOPLE!

AMAZING IF YOU CAN USE DIFFERENT FACE
FOR DIFFERENT PEOPLE,
WHY NOT GO JOIN GENIUS WORLD RECORD?!

LASTLY,
FUCK OFF FROM MY BLOG,
I DON'T WELCOME SHAMELESS CREEPS,
WELL, YOU CAN CONTINUE SPAMMING,
PROVIDED YOU ADMIT THAT YOU'RE A DOG!

CONFUSED MINDSET - SPEECHLESS ME..

2009-02-22T12:42:00.000-08:00

YOU GAVE ME WINGS TO FLY UP HIGH,
BUT, YOU TOOK IT BACK AGAIN... ...

CAN'T UNDERSTAND MY OWN FEELINGS NOW..
WHY AM I SMOKING & DRINKING TO NUMB MYSELF?!
I'M SUCH A USELESS COWARD!!!

DID YOU LIE TO ME REGRADING GIRLS?!

WHY AM I FEELING SO SCARED THAT YOU'LL REALLY FALL FOR HER..
OR IT IS ALREADY THE FACT?!
IF THAT'S SO,
WHY ARE YOU STILL CONCERNING ABOUT ME?!

WHY DID YOU GIVE ME FALSE HOPE WHEN I'M GIVING UP?!

I'M HURTED ONCE AGAIN..
TOTALLY TARNISHED MY OWN PRIDE!!!

IF YOU REALLY DO HAVE FEELINGS FOR HER,
WHY DON'T YOU ADMIT WHEN I ASKED?!
I HATE MYSELF FOR PINNING HOPES ON YOU..

YOU MADE ME LAND MORE DEEP INTO SORROWS..
WHY IS IT THAT THE ONE I NEED,
ALWAYS NOT THERE FOR ME?!

WHY AM I STILL NOT GIVING UP?!
I HATE MYSELF FROM BEING ME..

WHO'S OUT THERE WILLING TO KILL ME?!
I SHALL PAY YOU DOUBLE OF MARKET RATE..
I REGRET CARRYING ON WITH MY LIFE!

WHY AM I FEELING SO HURT NOW?!
YOU'RE SO IMPORTANT TO ME, YET ___
I'VE GOT NO CHOICE BUT TO FAKE A SMILE..
I HATE ACTING CHEERFUL ON THE OUTSIDE..
I HATE MYSELF FOR LOVING YOU SO DEEPLY..

WHERE'S MY CHANCE?! GONE!
WHERE'S YOUR LOVE?! FADED!
WHY AM I STILL LIVING?!

I HATE SMOKING... ...
I HATE DRINKING... ...

BUT, I DON'T KNOW WHY..
WHY AM I USING ALL THIS TO NUMB MYSELF?!
WHY AM I USING SUCH WAYS TO TORTURE MYSELF?!

BABY, ONCE I SAID I LOVE YOU,
AND I ALWAYS DO... ...
HOW ABOUT YOU?!

WHY DIDN'T MY FEELINGS FADE?!
WHY CAN'T I GIVE UP?!

ARE YOU WILLING TO COME BACK?!
IF YES, I'LL WAIT, NO MATTER HOW LONG..
IF NO, I'LL GIVE UP, BUT PLEASE END MY LIFE!

LIFE IS MEANINGLESS NOW FOR ME ~

NO MOOD ): * saddie monthsarie *

2009-02-22T03:10:00.000-08:00

greatest as you
smallest as me
you show me what is deep as sea
a little love
a little kiss
a little heart
a little gift
all of little something
these are memories
you make me cry
make me smile
make me feel the love is ture
you always stand by my side
i don't want to say goodbye
you make me cry
make me smile
make me feel the joy of love
oh kissing you
thank you for all the love
you always give to me
oh i love you

greatest as you
smallest as me
you show me what is deep as sea
a little love
a little kiss
a little heart
a little gift
all of little something
these are memories
you make me cry
make me smile
make me feel the love is true
you always stand by my side
i don't want to say goodbye
you make me cry
make me smile
make me feel the joy of love
oh kissing you
thank you for all the love
you always gave to me
oh i love you

yes i do ~
how you always do ~

make me cry
make me smile
make me feel the love is true
you always stand by my side
i don't want to say goodbye
you make me cry
make me smile
make me feel the joy of love
oh kissing you
thank you for all the love
you always give to me
oh i love you
to be with you
oh i love you

SENTOSA!!! * raining heavily *

2009-02-21T06:08:00.000-08:00

COMMUNICATION ERROR SIA!!!
SHE WAITED FOR ME AT - MRT STATION
I WAITED FOR HER AT - FOOD REPUBLIC
L-M-A-O-S!!!!!!
WHEN WE SAW EACH OTHER,
WE'RE LAUGHING LIKE HELL!!!
BLURR SOTONGS ~

WHEN TO SENTOSA FOR SUN-TANNING,
END UP IS SHOWERING!!!
LOLS..
NEVERMIND, GAINED ALOT..
PLAYED WITH DUDES..
BECAUSE ONLY THE TWO OF US,
WHEN WE'RE WAITING FOR THE TRAM,
2 DASHING GUYS JOKED WITH US..
L-M-A-O!!!

DUE TO THE HEAVY RAIN,
WE WHEN FOR SHELTER IN CAFE!!!
1 CUP OF TEA & 1 CUP OF LATTE,
COSTED US $9.40!!!* heartpain *
LOLS..

CAM-WHORING EVERYWHERE WE GO (:
IN CAFE (:
SMOKED ON THE WAY TO CAFE... ...

WHEN THE RAIN STOPS,

WE PLAYED & EMBARESSED OURSELEVES!

TOOK 3 HANDSOME GUYS PHONE NO. (:

PAT, STANLEY & DA BAO!!!

REGRETTED FOR NEGLECTING,

THOSE GUYS JOKING WITH US EARLIER IN THE DAY ):

CAM-WHORING IN TOILET... ...

BEFORE BATHING (:

AFTER BATHING (:

WALKING HERE & THERE,

F-I-N-D-I-N-G!!!

MY LEG DAMN PAIN SIA ):

FROM ABIT HUNGRY,

BECOME DAMN HUNGRY!

CRAVING FOR SUBWAY..

IN SUBWAY (:

SMOKED ON THE WAY TO VIVO... ...

I LEFT SO MUCH, WASTED HORHS?!

SUPOSSINGLY MEETING AARON, MICHELLE & PEIYING..

BUT TOO LATE LERHS!!!

ACCOMPANIED WEIZHI GO BUY _____

ON MY WAY HOME I'M SOO BUSY!!!

KEEP MESSAGING... ...

WISELY, PEIYING, MICHELLE..

TALKED CRAPS!!!

* OLP, I KNOW YOU VERY HANDSOME (:

REACHED HOME,

CALLED ZHENGHAN... ...

WE'RE ALL TALKING NONSENSE!

L-M-A-O... ...

* I REALISED THAT I'M TURNING,

FROM BAD TO WORST... ...

I'M SMOKING NOW!!!

OH MY GOD ~

ENTERTAINED!!! =D

2009-02-20T11:10:00.000-08:00

DEAR DOGGYS,
WHY ARE YOU SO EAGER TO ADMIT,
THAT YOU'RE A DOG?!
LOLS..
I SAID THAT I'M FREE TO,
ENTERTAIN DOGS!!!
I DIDN'T SAY I'M WILLING TO,
ENTERTAIN SHAMELESS SPAMMERS!!!
NO ONE WECLOME YOU HERE!
SCRAM OFF IF YOU DON'T WANT TROUBLES!

TO : LITING, FELICIA, TRICIA..
YOU HAVE NO RIGHTS TO COMMENT ON,
ME, MY EX-BOYFRIEND, PEIYING OR MY PARENTS!
I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY,
ARE THERE PEOPLE LIKE YOU,
SO CHILDISH YET SHAMELESS!!!
I HAVE THE RIGHT TO SUE YOU!
INSULTING IS AN OFFENCE!!!
WELL, LET ME SEE..
YOU SHAMELESS CREEPS NOT ONLY,
DRAGGED PEIYING DOWN,
ALSO DRAGGED MY PARENTS..

WELL, MY PARENTS ARE INTERESTED,
IN ENTERTAINING KIDS LIKE YOU!
WHO DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO THINK..

THIS IS MY BLOG,
I HAVE THE RIGHT,
TO SCOLD, CURSE AND POUR MY FEELINGS!
I DON'T NEED YOUR FUCKING COMMENTS!

DON'T ACT AS IF THE 3 OF YOU ARE,
ANGELIC C-H-I-O B-U!!!
IF YOU REALLY ARE,
WHY NOT SHOW US YOUR PHOTOS?!
S-H-A-M-E-L-E-S-S S-L-U-T-S!!!

KEEP IT IN MIND,
I'M BITCHY, NOT SLUTTY!!!
IF YOU DON'T GET THE MEANING,
GO BACK FOR YOUR P-S-L-E!!!

*HOW MANY GUYS DID I FUCK WITH,
IS NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS!!!
ONLY SLUTS ACCUSE PEOPLE,
FOR BEING ANOTHER SLUT!!!
JOLLY WELL GET AWAY!!!!!!

I DON'T KNOW WHO THE FUCKING HELL ARE YOU,
SO, STOP YOUR CHILDISH ACTIONS!!!
DIDN'T YOUR PARENTS EVER TEACH YOU,
ALWAYS R-E-S-P-E-C-T OTHERS BELONGINGS?!
SUCH ILL-MANNERED GIRLS ARE YOU!!!
EVEN 3 YRS OLD KID KNOW HOW TO RESPECT!
IF YOU DON'T KNOW,
GO HID BACK IN YOUR MOTHER'S WOMB!!!

STAY OUT OF MY WAY!!!

2009-02-19T22:15:00.000-08:00

EH..
COME ON LARHS..
USING SUCH WAYS TO SCARE ME OFF?!
FUCK YOU HORHS!!!
LET ME WARN YOU HERE,
STOP SPAMMING MY PHONE!!!
I'M NOT SURE WHETHER WHERE YOU GOT MY NO.
MAYBE FROM MY BLOG?! ~
BUT, CHECK CAREFULLY,
WHETHER ARE YOU THE TYPE WHO CAN PLAY WITH ME..
IF YOU REALLY THINK I'M IN FAULT,
FIND ME STRAIGHT!!!
I'M STAYING AT SERANGOON NORTH AVE 1..
JUST SCOLDING YOU USING PHONE,
IS NOT FUN ENOUGH FOR ME..
FUCK OFF IF YOU DON'T WANT TROUBLE!

GIRLS OUT THERE,
JEALOUS ALL YOU WANT!
I DON'T GIVE A DAMN..
I'M BITCHY, SO,
THERE'S NO NEED FOR ME TO SNATCH!!!
IF YOUR GUY REALLY LOVE YOU,
THEY WON'T LEAVE YOU!
WAKE UP PLEASE!!!
I'M NOT A GIRL WHICH,
YOU ALL CAN AFFORD TO MESS WITH!

LASTLY, I'M NOT EVEN A LEAST BIT,
I-N-T-E-R-E-S-T-E-D,
IN YOUR GUYS!!!
YOUR GUYS AREN'T HANDSOME ENOUGH FOR ME (:

WARNING :
PHONE NUMBERS ARE EASY TO TRACE,
I CAN FIND OUT WHO YOU ARE,
AND WHERE YOU STAY!!!
CONTINUE POLLUTING MY PHONE,
YOU'LL FIND ME OUTSIDE YOUR DOORSTEP!
MAKE SURE YOUR BACKUP IS STRONG ENOUGH,
TO FRIGHTEN ME AWAY,
OR ELSE,
DON'T BLAME ME FOR BEING RUTHLESS!!!

WANNA JIO ME OUT TO CONFRONT?!
FEEL FREE TO CALL ME AT 94659639!!!
FIND YOUR OTHER UGLY BITCHES!
I'M FREE ANYTIME,
BUT DON'T BACKOFF HALFWAY (:
SCARDY CATS!!!

JIAWEN NEEDS LIQOUR HIGH ENOUGH TO MAKE HER DRUNK!!!

2009-02-19T06:00:00.000-08:00

HAPPINESS SURROUNDED ME WHEN YOU REPLIED!!!
I WAS FLYING WAY UP HIGH TO THE SKY!!!
DON'T LET ME LAND AGAIN WITH DISAPPOINTMENT!!!
I DON'T MIND STAYING THIS WAY WITH YOU..
AT LEAST YOU STILL JOKE WITH ME (:
GLAD WHEN YOU TELL ME THAT YOU'LL BE STAYING SINGLE!!!
TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF..
I'LL ALWAYS BE THE ONE WAITING FOR YOU (:

NO REGRETS AT ALL!!!

PEOPLE READING,
PEOPLE WHOM I'VE INFORMED,
CONTACT ME A.S.A.P!!!
I NEED YOUR REPLIES..
IF EVERYONE I ASKED BRING ALONG 1 FRIEND,
THERE WILL BE AROUND 20+ PEOPLE!!!
I HOPE RESULTS WILL BE BETTER (:

CALL ME AT 94659639..
WHETHER I KNOW YOU OR NOT,
ALL WELCOMED (:
BUT, INTRO YOURSELF PLS!!!

do you feel how i felt?!

2009-02-19T00:28:00.000-08:00

your heart seems to be changing so fast..
can you sense my sadness?!
do you really loved me?!
if yes, how could you fall for another girl?!
way too fast, it's only been less than 1 month..
do you feel how i feel?!
my heart aches whenever i think of you..
why isn't there a slim glimse of light for me?!
i felt like dying whenever i cry missing you..
couldn't eat, couldn't sleep..
got into troubles, having infection,
just because of you,
do you know how much i've done for you?!
but, all you do is,
just treat me heartlessly..
not even a single chance was given..
pack of lies from you..
telling me that it's just a short break for us..
everything will be over soon..
ensuring me that you'll always love me..
promising that there won't be a day you'll fall for others..
telling me that you'll let me be the most lucky girl..
whenever i think back what you've said to me,
i can't help crying as if someone died..
counselling are all useless for me!!!
i miss you, i'll never forgive myself for letting go..
how do i feel when i know that you're willing to sacrifice me,
instead of your that someone..

you promised me that you're willing to die for me..
give me your warmth, so i won't be cold & scared..
give me a better & happy life..
give me yourself, so i have someone to hold on as you love me..

told me before that the love between us will always pull us back togather,
and you always love me even if you say you don't in words..
but deep in your heart, you'll always be loving me..

saying that you'll only love me,
no one can ever take away my place in your heart..
saying that you'll always be there to protect me no matter what..
saying that you'll always let me feel that you're by my side..
saying that you'll accompany me till the end of world..
saying that i'm your everything, you'll die without me..
saying that you'll let me be the most lucky girl..

sweet quotes from you..
is it forgotten by you already?!
nevermind, i'm here to remind..

aiyo u horhx miss mi until i can sneeze during dragon dance haiz so miss u too love u muackz

haiz so good sia sayang mi so good haiz so sian i wanna BAO BAO you

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lolz i lovu xiao zhuzhu.u will alwaes be my side horhx?haiz muackz u oso will love a zhu wan horhx??

wa fridae everything depends on mi le hope i will have them and next time we must go out more often le haiz muackz be there for u 4eva

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woots there still alot happy within us ritex hahaz so love u and so good pei mi alot siaargh veri fan ar!!! so hope i can rest away from all this things making mi brain gonna bao zao le!!love u i wony giv up de muackz

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Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..Da BenZhu love Xiao BenZhu..

I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..I Love You..

I SWEAR TAT I WILL ALWAES BE WIF U AND STAY AT UR SIDE NV EVA LEAVE MUACKZ I SWEAR or i die immediately in front of darling love u 4eva..

I WILL nv leave u BEHIND U TOO cannot leave mi love u muackz..the love between us will last long 4eva

I LOVE YOU!!!4EVA!!!WONT LEAVE U DE!!!MUACKZ!!I LOVE YOU!!!4EVA!!!WONT LEAVE U DE!!!MUACKZ!!I LOVE YOU!!!4EVA!!!WONT LEAVE U DE!!!MUACKZ!!I LOVE YOU!!!4EVA!!!WONT LEAVE U DE!!!MUACKZ!!I LOVE YOU!!!4EVA!!!WONT LEAVE U DE!!!MUACKZ!!I LOVE YOU!!!4EVA!!!WONT LEAVE U DE!!!MUACKZ!!I LOVE YOU!!!4EVA!!!WONT LEAVE U DE!!!MUACKZ!!I LOVE YOU!!!4EVA!!!WONT LEAVE U DE!!!MUACKZ!!I LOVE YOU!!!4EVA!!!WONT LEAVE U DE!!!MUACKZ!!I LOVE YOU!!!4EVA!!!WONT LEAVE U DE!!!MUACKZ!!I LOVE YOU!!!4EVA!!!WONT LEAVE U DE!!!MUACKZ!!I LOVE YOU!!!4EVA!!!WONT LEAVE U DE!!!MUACKZ!!I LOVE YOU!!!4EVA!!!WONT LEAVE U DE!!!MUACKZ!!I LOVE YOU!!!4EVA!!!WONT LEAVE U DE!!!MUACKZ!!I LOVE YOU!!!4EVA!!!WONT LEAVE U DE!!!MUACKZ!!I LOVE YOU!!!4EVA!!!WONT LEAVE U DE!!!MUACKZ!!I LOVE YOU!!!4EVA!!!WONT LEAVE U DE!!!MUACKZ!!I LOVE YOU!!!4EVA!!!WONT LEAVE U DE!!!MUACKZ!!I LOVE YOU!!!4EVA!!!WONT LEAVE U DE!!!MUACKZ!!I LOVE YOU!!!4EVA!!!WONT LEAVE U DE!!!MUACKZ!!I LOVE YOU!!!4EVA!!!WONT LEAVE U DE!!!MUACKZ!!

wo ai ni..i love u .. love 4eva..yong yuan ai ni..wo ai ni..i love u .. love 4eva..yong yuan ai ni..wo ai ni..i love u .. love 4eva..yong yuan ai ni..wo ai ni..i love u .. love 4eva..yong yuan ai ni..wo ai ni..i love u .. love 4eva..yong yuan ai ni..wo ai ni..i love u .. love 4eva..yong yuan ai ni..wo ai ni..i love u .. love 4eva..yong yuan ai ni..wo ai ni..i love u .. love 4eva..yong yuan ai ni..wo ai ni..i love u .. love 4eva..yong yuan ai ni..wo ai ni..i love u .. love 4eva..yong yuan ai ni..wo ai ni..i love u .. love 4eva..yong yuan ai ni..wo ai ni..i love u .. love 4eva..yong yuan ai ni..wo ai ni..i love u .. love 4eva..yong yuan ai ni..wo ai ni..i love u .. love 4eva..yong yuan ai ni..wo ai ni..i love u .. love 4eva..yong yuan ai ni..wo ai ni..i love u .. love 4eva..yong yuan ai ni..wo ai ni..i love u .. love 4eva..yong yuan ai ni..wo ai ni..i love u .. love 4eva..yong yuan ai ni..wo ai ni..i love u .. love 4eva..yong yuan ai ni..wo ai ni..i love u .. love 4eva..yong yuan ai ni..

i love u..wo ai ni..laogong love laopo..Da zhuzhu love Xiao zhuzhu..dearx dearx love darling 4eva!!!i love u..wo ai ni..laogong love laopo..Da zhuzhu love Xiao zhuzhu..dearx dearx love darling 4eva!!!i love u..wo ai ni..laogong love laopo..Da zhuzhu love Xiao zhuzhu..dearx dearx love darling 4eva!!!i love u..wo ai ni..laogong love laopo..Da zhuzhu love Xiao zhuzhu..dearx dearx love darling 4eva!!!i love u..wo ai ni..laogong love laopo..Da zhuzhu love Xiao zhuzhu..dearx dearx love darling 4eva!!!i love u..wo ai ni..laogong love laopo..Da zhuzhu love Xiao zhuzhu..dearx dearx love darling 4eva!!!i love u..wo ai ni..laogong love laopo..Da zhuzhu love Xiao zhuzhu..dearx dearx love darling 4eva!!!i love u..wo ai ni..laogong love laopo..Da zhuzhu love Xiao zhuzhu..dearx dearx love darling 4eva!!!i love u..wo ai ni..laogong love laopo..Da zhuzhu love Xiao zhuzhu..dearx dearx love darling 4eva!!!i love u..wo ai ni..laogong love laopo..Da zhuzhu love Xiao zhuzhu..dearx dearx love darling 4eva!!!

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wo zi ai xiao zhuzhu yi ge ren..wo zi ai xiao zhuzhu yi ge ren..wo zi ai xiao zhuzhu yi ge ren..wo zi ai xiao zhuzhu yi ge ren..wo zi ai xiao zhuzhu yi ge ren..wo zi ai xiao zhuzhu yi ge ren..wo zi ai xiao zhuzhu yi ge ren..wo zi ai xiao zhuzhu yi ge ren..wo zi ai xiao zhuzhu yi ge ren..wo zi ai xiao zhuzhu yi ge ren..wo zi ai xiao zhuzhu yi ge ren..wo zi ai xiao zhuzhu yi ge ren..wo zi ai xiao zhuzhu yi ge ren..wo zi ai xiao zhuzhu yi ge ren..wo zi ai xiao zhuzhu yi ge ren..wo zi ai xiao zhuzhu yi ge ren..wo zi ai xiao zhuzhu yi ge ren..wo zi ai xiao zhuzhu yi ge ren..wo zi ai xiao zhuzhu yi ge ren..wo zi ai xiao zhuzhu yi ge ren..wo zi ai xiao zhuzhu yi ge ren..wo zi ai xiao zhuzhu yi ge ren..wo zi ai xiao zhuzhu yi ge ren..wo zi ai xiao zhuzhu yi ge ren..wo zi ai xiao zhuzhu yi ge ren..wo zi ai xiao zhuzhu yi ge ren..wo zi ai xiao zhuzhu yi ge ren..wo zi ai xiao zhuzhu yi ge ren..wo zi ai xiao zhuzhu yi ge ren..wo zi ai xiao zhuzhu yi ge ren..wo zi ai xiao zhuzhu yi ge ren..

I,DA ZhuZhu onli love Xiao ZhuZhu 4eva,nv leave u,will u pei mi till the world end??muack love u 4eva!!

yo darling todae i send u 1 hahaz hope u saw now i bath le i call ui miss u so much now i wan baobao u now!!but cant not beside mi sia sian sobx

hahaz yesterdae nv send u got angry or sad??darling so good pei mi todae haha love u darling muackz u the best!!!

hahaz kkz bah kiss lor hahaz good luck for all ur ur exam muackz love u alwaes darling muackz!!

darling ar u oso must pass horhx unless very dificult math u no interst but still must try hard horhx muackz love u darling good luck!!anithing nid help call or find mi muackz

hahaz ur testis la haiz so sian wan bao bao now boring wan sleep oso wif u hahaz muackz love u

darling so sorri todae nv care u so much can forgiv mi??love u muackz muackz and gd luck for ur chem tomorrow hope u can see the testis todae bahx hahaz

argh!! darling ar miss u now wan tok to u,see u or everything oso cannot.haiz sian la u got work miss u now love u 4eva

miss u oso darling yes tomorrow we go buy things for 11mth ok??haiz muack love u lots lots~~~aini de zhuzhu

aiyo 11mth sia next mth alot things to buy wah!!happy happy happy yea!!love darling muackz miss u lots lots

darling ar can i dun send 100 miltr hnd pain sia sorri i didnt mark mi word i slowly add up can??u wont angry de horhx muackz i love u darling wad u doing now??i miss u now u noe??haiz sian la u nid work haiz haiz haiz love darling ~~~~~~~da zhuzhu

darling,i love u foreva dun worry tat i will run away wif other gals cos i onli love u muack love 4eva~~~love darling

darling ar next mth de 17 mi gonna broke le la but nvm u see 1st year le woots now u beleive in mi tat we can long long long lasting??i wait u to ans tat in oyr 1st year

i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!i miss u now!!

i love xiaogerl 4eva!!i love xiaogerl 4eva!!i love xiaogerl 4eva!!i love xiaogerl 4eva!!i love xiaogerl 4eva!!i love xiaogerl 4eva!!i love xiaogerl 4eva!!i love xiaogerl 4eva!!i love xiaogerl 4eva!!i love xiaogerl 4eva!!i love xiaogerl 4eva!!i love xiaogerl 4eva!!i love xiaogerl 4eva!!i love xiaogerl 4eva!!i love xiaogerl 4eva!!i love xiaogerl 4eva!!i love xiaogerl 4eva!!

i love Xiao ZhuZhu!!i love Xiao ZhuZhu!!i love Xiao ZhuZhu!!i love Xiao ZhuZhu!!i love Xiao ZhuZhu!!i love Xiao ZhuZhu!!i love Xiao ZhuZhu!!i love Xiao ZhuZhu!!i love Xiao ZhuZhu!!i love Xiao ZhuZhu!!i love Xiao ZhuZhu!!i love Xiao ZhuZhu!!i love Xiao ZhuZhu!!i love Xiao ZhuZhu!!i love Xiao ZhuZhu!!i love Xiao ZhuZhu!!i love Xiao ZhuZhu!!

i onli love jiawen!!i onli love jiawen!!i onli love jiawen!!i onli love jiawen!!i onli love jiawen!!i onli love jiawen!!i onli love jiawen!!i onli love jiawen!!i onli love jiawen!!i onli love jiawen!!i onli love jiawen!!i onli love jiawen!!i onli love jiawen!!i onli love jiawen!!i onli love jiawen!!i onli love jiawen!!i onli love jiawen!!

i love my girlfriend,she the best i love her 4evai love my girlfriend,she the best i love her 4evai love my girlfriend,she the best i love her 4evai love my girlfriend,she the best i love her 4evai love my girlfriend,she the best i love her 4evai love my girlfriend,she the best i love her 4evai love my girlfriend,she the best i love her 4evai love my girlfriend,she the best i love her 4evai love my girlfriend,she the best i love her 4evai love my girlfriend,she the best i love her 4evai love my girlfriend,she the best i love her 4evai love my girlfriend,she the best i love her 4evai love my girlfriend,she the best i love her 4evai love my girlfriend,she the best i love her 4evai love my girlfriend,she the best i love her 4evai love my girlfriend,she the best i love her 4evai love my girlfriend,she the best i love her 4eva

^--^ ^--^(^(00)^)~~ZHUZHU~~(^(00)^)MARRIAGE OF DA ZHUZHU&&&XIAO ZHUZHU

i love xiao zhuzhu oni and the onli zhuzhu in the world i love

darling rox i love darling 4eva one and onli love for darling muackz love love love onli for u!!

Tan Yong seng love Koh JiaWen!!Tan Yong seng love Koh JiaWen!!Tan Yong seng love Koh JiaWen!!Tan Yong seng love Koh JiaWen!!Tan Yong seng love Koh JiaWen!!Tan Yong seng love Koh JiaWen!!Tan Yong seng love Koh JiaWen!!Tan Yong seng love Koh JiaWen!!Tan Yong seng love Koh JiaWen!!Tan Yong seng love Koh JiaWen!!Tan Yong seng love Koh JiaWen!!Tan Yong seng love Koh JiaWen!!Tan Yong seng love Koh JiaWen!!Tan Yong seng love Koh JiaWen!!Tan Yong seng love Koh JiaWen!!Tan Yong seng love Koh JiaWen!!Tan Yong seng love Koh JiaWen!!

17time of 17 tat wad all haf and the love wifin u and mi darling all start on 171106 muack love u foreva and for rest of all my life when next generation

lasting 17th loveyong seng love jiawen 17lovercouples

come to the end lets haf a 17 ending na dall ending all wishes to mi and u tat's happy everlasting muack

17alwaes lightes my lofe does it happen to u too??hahaz darling muack love u

haiz miss u sia darling long holidae sia cannot see u but going a year le and mi bruthdae onli two daes away from our 1year u gonna broke hahaz muackz darling love u~~ZhuZhu

darling ar!!miss u now!!work come bak tired ma??o.0 hope wont bahx 191107and 171107 coming lehx?wad u getting??hahaz~muack love u~~ZhuZhu

darling another dae gone less 1 dae le hahaz u getting broke liao hahaz muackz darling i love u. u tired??todae work ok??got nt feeling well??o.0 muackz ai ni ~~ZhuZhu

for todae de darling u todae tired ma??tomorrow can tok lehx hahaz muackz darling going 17 le lehx wad u getting hahaz i thick skin horhx??ask u my gift lolz haiz love u lots lots we will go more years de muackz mani more to go uncountable more hahaz muackz love u~~ZhuZhu

darling ar miss u sia now so hope u beside mi den can hug hug u sia haiz boring faster 17and 19 nov hahaz muackz darling remember horhx broke liao ar??haiz dear dear here hahaz muackz love u darling~~ZhuZhu

sorri drling todae i returned u all i nv send de ok?haiz lets start wif wes haiz tat dae was too tired coming bak from lin dance haiz but we still haf chat hahaz so love it as we haf no mush time meet and chat so long darling i love u alwaes muackz 17nov coming~~ZhuZhu

darling the next dae hahaz deepavali lolz hope i didnt spell wrong blehx english luosy ar mi hahaz darling i mss u so much u tired liaoa hrhx must haf early nitex everydae horhx dun alwaes 3+4 then sleep worst 5den sleep ok??promise can??muackz darling love u alwaes~~ZhuZhu

this for todae de darling u come bak work got eat??drink lots water??got sick??pain aniwhere??hahaz darling i wan hahaz haiz boring so wan to see u now lt tokj man hahaz muackz darling ~~ZhuZhu

oh few more daes to 17 and +2daes more is 19 mi birthdae so hope can faster reach and i gonna see mi darling hahaz muackz ~~ZhuZhu

darling ar miss u sia so love u haiz tired ma??love u lots and miss u lots ltr calling mi baby hahaz love u muack~~ZhuZhu

I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU CAN IMAGINE..
COULD YOU JUST GIVE ME A CHANCE?!
I REALLY NEED YOU ALOT..
I'M SORRY BABY... ...

CRAPPY DAY... ...

2009-02-18T09:14:00.000-08:00

wake up, go out, til nw..
jus reached home..
AGAIN..
iie no appetite 2 eat..
afternoon tym ate onlie abit,
ended up vomited all out..
whole dae onlie consumed 1 apple..
moii blood pressure is LOW!!!
doctor gonna torture mii..
counsellor gonna kill mii!!!
iie pity moiiself ):

soo mani ppl saein tat iie'm crazie lorhs!!!
naggin mii 4 nt eatin & nt slpin..
( iie cant help, iie oso wanna slp & eat well! )
everione iie saw 1st thg they sae 2 mii is... ...
wah! jiawen, euu slim down alot lehs!
iie jus keep quiet & smile..

overall, tok crap wif alot ppl..
HAHAHA..
almost scare boonmin 2 hell sia..
den msgin aaron & pohjian at nite..
crappin all de wae..
LMAO!!!

is there really someone who is more important to you than me now?!

NTH 2 SAE!

2009-02-17T01:28:00.000-08:00

SUPOSSINGLY TO BE MY GREAT DAY TODAY... ...
17th of february, iie'm left on de launch alone..
5 more days, iie shall CRY moii heart out..

can euu imagine tat iie slept only 4hrs in 3 days?!
that means iie'm awake for 68hrs w/o feeling tired!!!
didn't eat too.. no appetite..
ytd iie ate onlie 2 slices of pancake, no more..
cried soo much tis few weeks, esp ytd..
iie dun feel lyk givin up him..
suddenlie L.A 2dae..
dunno 4 wat reason,
iie've being vomitin 2 tyms 2dae..
ARGHS!!!
lost 5kg suddenlie tis 3 daes!!!
doctor, parents, friends all naggin at mii!
surprisingly, iie've gt no dark rings at all!!!

I THOUGHT I CAN FORGET HIM, BUT, THE RESULTS TURNED OUT TO BE OPPOSITE...

2009-02-16T07:39:00.000-08:00

HERE ARE RESULTS I DID FROM PERSONALITY TEST,
IT MAKE ME MORE SURE THAT I WON'T BE ABLE TO FORGET HIM..

Which type of woman are you?
RESULTS - You are the extreme opposite to an action woman: you are sweet, you love pink and glitter.Everyone who sees you sees a totally and perfect styled little girl - daddy's little girl maybe.Boys are drawn to you automatically. But they have no respect. They play with you. It's hard for you to find a boy who is willing to risk a serious relationship.You have a lot of friends, but most of them are girls just like you. You also have a lot of shallow contacts. Maybe you are very dependent on your parents. You are always so squeaky and happy and lovely when others are near - but that's only a mask. A mask that covers all your sadness, desperation and self-doubt. One day you will make someone very happy, but untill then you have to learn to love yourself and be the person you are supposed to be.

What does your birthday say about you?
RESULTS - Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

Who Is Your Soulmate?
RESULTS - You belong with someone unafraid to show their wild side. At first they may seem shy, but once you truly get to know them, you see their true colors.

Are You an Angel or a Devil?
RESULTS - Oops. You seem to be in the center of the greater good and evil. When your parents say no, you sometimes want to have your way! But other times, you listen to them. Decide which path you wish to take and focus on it! I hope you don't turn out to be a rotten apple though. Good luck! =D

The Ultimate Bitch Test
RESULTS - Like any girl you love a good bitch. But you have to have a good reason to bitch and you always feel a little bad afterwards. You can always justify your bitchiness. You've got the balance just right =)

how much can u love someone????
RESULTS - you believe in"loving with eyes closed and with a heart open" thus you are crazy unconditional lover

How bitchy are you?
RESULTS - Bitchyhelly
Whenever you just need to yell and say to other people something nasty and rude, you just don't have the heart to say something nice...Please go back to yourself, find out something wrong with your brain :)

wat type of girl are u???
RESULTS - u are a random girl who does wat she does and doesnt act all big, u noe ur place and u never cross the line ur love belongs to only one person at a time and no more!!!

What Is The Darker Side Of You ?
RESULTS - Multiple faces
You are a manipulative person.Nobody really knows you, but you know them like an open book!

Which Sign Are You Most Compatible With?
RESULTS - Scorpio
You are most compatible with SCORPIO! I'm sure most of your friends are Scorpions! Together you're going to rock! Scorpio’s are strong, deep, mysterious, complex, and also secretive. One trait of the Scorpio personality is that of an achiever, striving to succeed, and do well in life. They are often an influence of leadership and play important roles in the lives of people surrounding them. They may appear to calm and self controlling, but in reality they are actually very emotional individuals.Scorpio’s are considered to be gifted. Their high striving minds are often incapable of accepting failure.Thus, Scorpio’s are often more likely to succeed in their goals and dreams. Scorpio’s prove to be excellent friends. They are loyal and committed to their companions and are often vital roles in the lives of the one’s who love them.
( THIS IS NOT MATCHING HOROSCOPES, I GET THIS RESULT BY JUST ANSWERING WHAT TYPE OF GUY I LIKE, WHAT PERSONALITY HE MUST HAVE, I DID NOT INDICATE MY HOROSCOPE OR BIRTHDATE!!! MY DREAM GUY IS A SCROPION!!! )

iie'm kinda shock when iie c de result..
haiz.. determine in relationship..
SROPIO turn out 2 be moii most compatible sign..
hw am iie goin 2 4get bout him tis wae?!
he's de guy iie've been searchin high & low..
yet iie let him slip off!!!
iie reallie reallie nid him in moii life!!!

am i being FORGOTTEN?!

2009-02-15T00:12:00.000-08:00

his friends are always before me ):
somehow felt that i'm no longer important to him..
is it really so easy to give up & forget?!
reculant, but have to say,
i really hope that i can rewind my life..
i might seem happy & satisfied on the outside,
but, deep down, i really don't feel it that way..
I WISH TO CRY OUT LOUD!!!
controlling my tears infront of people,
makes me feel more miserable ):
i really hate myself letting go of him..
i tried very hard to fight back for him,
but, non-sucessful!!!
don't know what happened to me,
why is it that whenever i heard bout his news,
my tears just rolled down unknowingly..
i tried ways to make myself forget about him..
no matter how hard i try,
he's just such an impossible task..
i don't wish to forget about him..
but, just to pretend that nothing happened!
how can i strive back him to my side?!
2 more days, supposingly to be my happy day..
but, now, i'm left alone crying at the corner..
7 more days, will be the saddest day for me..
hurts when i'm counting down for these events..
I REALLY MISS HIM LOADS!!!
i miss the kisses & the hugs..
i miss his warmth, hugging me to sleep..
i miss holding hands, shopping with him..
i miss the way he feed & dote me..
i miss his pamperings for me..
i miss how he coax me when i'm moody..
i miss messing up his hair when he's styling..
i miss him choosing clothes for me..
i miss the smell of his scent..
i miss biting him when he hug me tight..
i miss chatting on phone with him..
i miss him sweet-talking to me..
i miss those days spending togather..
BABY, DO YOU STILL LOVE ME?!
actually, i cherish him alot..
i admit hurting him too..
sorry for being that way ):
i don't mean that too,
but, when i'm moody,
there goes my attitude..
i seriously love him more than i showed..
but, everything seems too late now ):
every corner in my room,
i can see his things laying..
everytime my heart sunkens..
what for keep saying let the past be the past,
when i cannot even get out of the past..
sorry that i've disappointed people,
who are comforting me in many ways..
i just couldn't get him out of my mind..
no one can help me in forgetting him..
it's just too useless!!!
i'm lying to myself..
i would never be happy without him..
why is it so difficult for me to forget him?!
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU EXPECTED... ...

FOUND THIS SWEET PAST CREATED BY HIM..

HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY!!!

2009-02-14T00:30:00.000-08:00

JINSHENG WASHING THE PLATES! SUCH A GOOD GUY (: LOLS.. THE BACK OF THE BEAR.. (I'M 'BEARY' SPECIAL UH!)
THIS BEAR'S FROM JINSHENG! SOO CUTE HORHS?! (:
PEIYING BOUGHT ME THIS ROSE SIA! *PROPOSED* LMAO!
LIKE SHIT, BUT, TASTE NICE.. CHOCOLATE FLAKE BY PEIYING!
THIS IS SPECIALLY SAVED FOR MY MUMMY!!!
THIS IS JINSHENG'S SHARE, SOO MUCH LORHS!
THIS IS PEIYING'S SHARE, GIVE US SO MUCH, BUT HERS?!
COOKED BY MY DEAREST "HUSBAND".. I LOVE YOU!

iie've enjoyed moii dae (:

thanks 4 all de presents, more to collect!

LOLS.. goin meet shidah real soon..

dunno wat's she gonna gif mii..

iie mus prepare present 4 her oso sia~

wenyong ask peiying y iie cant meet em..

peiying is such a good "lair".. LOLS..

but, aniwaes, thanks 4 helpin mii,

findin excuses 2 hide..

HAHAHA..

SPECIALLY THANKS TO

JINSHENG

PEIYING <3

I SERIOUSLY NEED MY VALENTINE BY MY SIDE!

2009-02-13T04:37:00.001-08:00

PANDA can be moii fren!
OMG!!!
moii eye bags r gettin worst!
2morro's VALENTINES DAY!!!
haiz.. mine has gone ):
but iie'll still be celebratin..
well, nt wif HIM..
but, wif some ppl hu,
iie shall reallie cherish!
cos they're alwaes dere 4 mii (:
tis yr would be different frm de past..
iie might be happie though,
but, iie'll still feel lonely..
iie jus dunno y is tat soo difficult..
4gettin a guy shouldn't be a task 4 mii..
but, y when it comes 2 HIM,
everithg dun seems 2 be as usual 4 mii..
ppl might think it's jus OUT-OF-LOVE mahs..
but, iie jus can't let go easilie..
may iie noe hu's out dere 2 help,
mii in 4gettin HIM.....
moii life is prettie miserable nw!!!

there's no point for me,
keep telling people consoling me that i'm fine,
when i am actually not fine at all!
what for faking a smile,
lying to myself that,
i can be happy without him?!
i felt i'm just so useless,
when it comes to letting go of him..
the more i want to forget,
the more i miss him..
the more i want to hate him,
i'll fall deeper into loving him..
i seriously need HELP!!!
HAPPY VALENTINES', BOY (:
i really might get crazy in missing him ^^

I LOVE YOU GUYS!

2009-02-12T03:49:00.000-08:00

todae was quite suay larhs..
earlie in de mornin 8am,
recieved msg frm HAW JINSHENG!
he dun let mii slp sia ):
nvm.. iie wake peiying up too!!!
HAHAHA..
afternoon tym,
dunno wat happen sia,
moii back & tummie pain lyk,
FUCKING HELL!!!!!!
evenin when out shoppin (:
happie, happie, happie..
iie bought quite alot of thgs..
even bought 1 pair of earrings 4 peiying..
cos de design is OWL!
LMAO..
was lyk chit-chat wif jinsheng de whole dae..
den awhile wif peiying & shidah..
walk walk half-wae,
saw someone SPECIAL!!!
iie miss him loads..
HAHAHA..
saw moii ah boy, but,
tok awhile den iie walk awae liaos..
cos iie busie choosin mini-laptop (:
den he followed, ask 4 moii new no.
iie tell him ownself go ask frm,
his bro-in-law..
he gif mii a kuku face larhs!
( ahhh-bish~ )

btw, jus 2 add on,
dere's no nid 4 mii ACT pity!
ppl ard mii will pity mii ders (:
iie'm jus too irresistable!
LMAO..
aniwaes, iie LOVE euu guys..
PEIYING
JINSHENG
SHIDAH
SARAH
WANNING
thanks 4 euur comforts (:
iie'm still moiiself!!!
HAHAHA..

I DON'T GIVE A DAMN!

2009-02-11T17:46:00.000-08:00

some ppl r jus pure PETTY ass..
quarrel wif gals, nvm..
givin out attitude on de innocence..
eh, no point larhs..
ultimate failure!!!
r euu sure euu're a guy?!
keep euur ass 2 euurself..
no 1 is keen on lookin it..
so wat if iie'm a FAKER?!
lols.. tat means?!
someone dun admit tat he's a FUCKER!
euu're no man at all!
ppl hu can fuck r fuckers..
well, iie'm nt surprised at all..
euu're nt a FUCKER..
R-O-F-L-M-A-O!!!
iie wont use moii tym on,
entertainin tis kind of ppl..
stop barkin ard moii blog..
iie dun nid euu 2 pollute it!
mind euur own FUCKING business,
dun interfer into ppl's affair..
someone hu dunno hw 2 cherish frenship,
is nt worth 4 us 2 4gif him!
YOU'RE SUCH A PETTY "FUCKER"..
HAHAHA..
iie bet those hu noe wat am iie saein,
will laugh their ass off!
everitym quarrel wif ppl,
onlie noe hw 2 sae ppl a FAKER!
euu, euurself oso okaes!
c de wae hw euu treat euur frens ard euu..
euu're much worst off den a BACKSTABBER!
no wae we can treat as nth happened..
pls dun bark at moii tag-board,
if euu're unhappie wif mii!
1 more, euu dare insult mii,
iie warn euu, stop it!
oso stop euu're fuckin attitude,
ppl ard euu r innocent!!!

I HATE F-U-C-K-E-R-S!

2009-02-11T01:09:00.000-08:00

eh, come on larhs..
hu do euu think euu r 2 comment on mii?!
euu think euur remarks can affect moii life?!
B-U-L-L-S-H-I-T!
euu're jus purely nth in moii eyes..
so wat if iie noe euu 4 soo long?!
nt worth troublin moiiself over ppl lyk euu..
BIG-MOUTH SIANG!
onlie noe hw 2 add thgs lyk,
salt, vinegar, oil onto de fire..
beware of gettin burnt 1 dae..
iie shall laugh moii ass off!
ask euurself,
hu changed de most la horhs!
iie dun care wat euu tell ys..
yarhs, so wat if it's nt worth 4 him 2 be wif mii?!
stop pokin euur FUCKING nose into ppl's affair..
no 1 is keen 4 euur busibodie-ness..
think b4 euu act okaes!
nt everione will drop into euur
FUCKING evil trap..
kick euur own ass off moii blog..
or rather, stay awae frm moii affairs!
iie'm warnin euu jus 1 tym..
or iie shall turn nastie 2wards ppl lyk euu!
dere's no wae iie'll turn soft-hearted on tis kind of ____
no nid mii 2 state soo clear wat kind of ppl r euu!

iie wanna change phone!!!

2009-02-10T22:39:00.000-08:00

ytd nite, moii crazie parents ran into moii room,
jus 2 show off their new phone 2 mii!!!
ARGHS! cant slp cos of their crazie-ness..
can euu imagine moii daddie bought 4 phones in 1 shot!
he bought vaio series de touch screen phone..
all same model, 3 black, 1 white..
oh man! iie wan de white 1..
well de conversation is..
daddy: girl, i've bought new phone leh, cool horhs?!
mummy: your daddy's siao one..
mii: HAHAHA..
daddy ( showing off all the functions to me )
mummy: girl, you want the phone?!
mii: okay lorhs..
mummy: okay larhs, i discount, $150 please..
wth! of cos iie nv gif $$ larhs..
but, iie reallie wan it,
de white is soo damn chio sia!
cos of de 4 pcs of new phones,
moii parents dun let mii slp!!!
keep playin wif de phone,
well, mii too..
HAHAHA..
but, in de end, moii mummy sae no $$ no phone,
den take back..
woah! robberie at home sia..
iie was lyk laughin thru de whole midnite,
den our laughter woke moii maid & bro up..
HAHAHA..
iie'll pester moii daddy 4 tat white colour phone ders!
iie'm happie de whole wae sia..
HAHAHA..
no tym 2 go shoppin!!!
mummy sae no nail pamperings 4 mii,
cos moii nails r naughty..
they cracked at de wrong tymin..
iie hate moii 'unhealthy' nails..
nvm.. iie gainin back moii life..
still can go shoppin as usual..
iie'm statisfied, cos,
iie reallie requested alot of thgs..
HAHAHA..

time to be realistic.. haiz..

2009-02-10T03:20:00.000-08:00

sweet memories forgotten!
let it all remain in the past..
time to let go,
i shall not hold on anymore..
he's future might be better,
who knows?!
goodbye my love (:

iie still love euu de same as b4,

but, dere wont be ani chance 4 us 2 patch back le bahs?!

euu shall alwaes be de 1 iie loved most in moii life..

no 1 is supposed 2 take over euur place in moii heart..

iie miss euu, but, iie'll respect euur wish..